Dreaming Out Loud ♫

9th february 2011.

2011-02-09T05:12:00.000-08:00

dont think anyone reads this blog anymore it is already 2011 its been years since i last updated it i dont think i know how to write anymore but the speed of my typing remains the same. i tink. or has it gotten faster? hikhikhik

i am surprised i remember the password. really.

anyways everyone in this world is like really alone we really have no one to rely on seriously. but ourselves. :)

i cannot really express what im feeling right now. its a great big feeling of emptiness. i wouldnt even call it a void. because its not. because honestly. if i were to be exploded into a million tiny pieces this instant, i can genuinely say, i won't feel a thing.

bcuz my entire system is numb.

FUCKING FED UP IS THE WORD.

anyways i really need to study the stress is really getting to me next weeks intervensi i know most people dont give shit but in our school. people study anyway.... not all but still..

and i have been getting more and more unhappy in this house.

idk why i just get fucking pissed when i see everyone here. the way everyone reacts to the simplest things. so fucking annoying. makes me sad that this is my origin.

cant wait to get my ass out of malaysia

for i am like, depressed.

new year 2010

2009-12-31T08:29:00.000-08:00

FCK IT.

hi.

i feel so sad so empty so... 2009-ny the sky is practically exploding and all i can say is.. crap. i dont want this year to end. in last year's post, i was dying for 2008 to end. and i was hoping 2009 would not be as fcked up and 2009..seriously gave me the BEST YEAR I COULD EVER HOPE FOR. seriously!!!!

whatever i wanted, i got. i achieved.

piano exam? i was one of the 2 students out of 10 students to pass it. HAHAHAHA. maybe my class is stupid but there is definite satisfaction in that.

violin exam? i passed. despite me BARELY PRACTISING AT ALL. and well, screwing up in the examination room as usual. MY NERVES WILL ALWAYS RAPE ME. I NEED CONDOMS HAHAHAHA WTF

pmr? straight As :) HAHAHAHAHA

that was my main concern. bcuz, honestly, everyone around me expects me to get it. well, *I* expect me to get it. HAHAHA! it may be nothing. everyone says pmr is nothing. well, mainly, it's role is self-satisfaction :D

and i really hate failing. i LOATHE failing. and oh fk my itunes just shuffled to it ends tonight- all american rejects. HAIH!!! WTF!!!

anyways i jz spent TWO WHOLE DAYS WITH NASREEN PHOEBE AND MY MURUKU. BEST DAYS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FROM ICE SKATING WHICH I FKING HATE TO BOWLING TO ARCHERY TO SWIMMING TO KARAOKE..................... AND SHOPPING AND FCKING AROUND AS USUAL.

days well spent! :D

well. school's beginning. SPM syllabus. HAHAHAAHAHA. OMG. FK IT LA!!!!!

new years resolutions? failing is not an option. so is breaking down.

IM GOING TO BRING MYSELF A NOTCH HIGHER THIS YEAR

oh yah meet more boys also HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAA (Y) DUHHHHHHHH

and also. i want the people around me to remain the same :) if its possible, i would like the number to increaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

so. happy new year bitches!!!!! lmao

2009-12-08T10:27:00.000-08:00

dont know what to sayyyyyyyyy dont know what to doooooooooooooo

dont like the word dessssperateeeeeeeee

dont like the pain in my lefttt shoulderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

dont like dont like dont like dont like dont like dont likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dont like not accomplishing anythingggggggggg

dont likeeeeeeeeeee feeling pissssssssyyyyyyyyyyyy at everythinggg

dont like feeling helplesssssssssss feeling lessssssssss thannnnnnn perrrrrrfeeeeeecttttt

dont likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee notttttt knooowwwwwinggggg wat i wannttttttttttt

dont like feeling so incompetent. dont like feeling small. dont like losing. dont like eyebrow piercing. dont like people who think animals are disgusting? wtf? look into the mirror and think again.. polar bears r so cute... but jz now the one on animal planet didnt eat for 5 months and wanted to eat this seal so cute.. changed channel cuz couldnt bear it.

dont like going down to turn off the modem.. why is the MODEM DOWNSTAIRS?!!?!?!? dont understand...

dont like YOU reading this blog and claiming you know me...

dont like.......... dont like................ dont like..........

just, dont like..

crystal gan

2009-12-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

the paparazzi.

LOOK! ITS LAU SAI SING!!!! HAHAHAAHAH WTF.

normal people walk through, go O_O wtf, but not me, not crystal gan!!!! HAHAHAAHA.

crystal gan see unnusual situation, crystal gan take out shitty fon, crystal gan go SNAP SNAP!!!!!!!!! and post on blog to share amazing experience.. lol.

now, here we see a mother wearing a pink thong. and flaunting it to the world. i kenot believe she cant feel it!!!!!!! bcuz i know she can. I BET SHE CAN LOR!?!!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!!

MILF WANNABE!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!

and beside her i think i see an asshole flaunting itself...

tsktsk...free porn everywhere.. who needs redtube. HAHAHAHA.

AUNTY!!! TELLING YOUR SON NOT TO WATCH PORN ISIT???

KEKEKEKEKEKEKE.

today i went to pj for lunch and bumped into COLIN LEE FROM MY PRIMARY SCHOOL WHILE COMING OUT FROM THE TOILET AND HE WAS GOING IN HAHAHAHA. ITS LIKE WE WALK PAST EACH OTHER AND THEN WE TURN BACK TO FACE EACH OTHER AND SAID AT THE SAME TIME "WAT ARE YOU DOING HEERE?!!?!?!?!?!!?!"

HAHAHAHHAAHA. SO FUNNY WEI!!!! like action movie. then he shuffled into the toilet awkwardly wtf HI COLIN IF U ARE READIN TIS!!!!!!! EL OH EL!!!

skts gathering la woi.......... nudge nudge skts people...

OKOKOKOKOK!!!! PAPARAZZZI PART 2!!!!!!

today i went for a wedding lunch. and wtf!?!?!!?!?!

WAT IS TAT THING ON HER HEAD WEI. looks like my mother after cuci rambut.. balut rambut dengan tuala untuk... keringkan.. rasa sayang... hei.. lol.

couldnt stop laffing wei...

my turban okeh onot? loose jor rite?
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

omg i rock!!!!!!! HAHAAHA MAYBE I SHUD REALLY CONSIDER BEING A PAPARAZZI...

i am the next perez hilton.

i am tommie cruizo. WTF HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

let me teach u how to drink sprite happily..

everytime i go for swimming i sleep at 5am wtf and wake up at 8am to folo dad to club..

MR CHUA'S DOG!!!!!!!!

does anybody haf mr chua kasturi punya fb profile!!!! really wanna thank him for ze extra class hehe :D kh is nao kacang putih suci dan memutih lagi...

after a while, self destruction becomes a habit.

nothing can stop me now.

and Br@ ONG. I iSH kEnOT lInk EuUU oRHXxX. I Oso Dun UnDErSTand WHy HoRx~*

SoRrY okIEx.

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEHEHEHHEE. go pack for interact conference.. pack all my pillows.

ciao ciao ciaoooooooooooooooo kukuciaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

booo

2009-11-29T11:05:00.000-08:00

back.

i LOVE my hometown. alot of pics but left my fon downstairs so today its 3.55am nao i jz do something random. the melaka river has many dead monitor lizards floating around. it is very sad. i wish to do something about it. hate feeling helpless.

i hate my hair. it looks like pubic hair trying to be hair but only jadi halfway so its semi pubic hair HAHAHA i am so disgusting. plus, its so thick. so its always in a bun. so you idiots, if you want to lepak with crystal gan, must call ok!!!!!! dont suddenly pop up in front of my doorstep.

bcuz if you ring my doorbell and i happen to answer the door we will look at each other like dis O_O for two minutes and then you will ask if crystal gan is at home.

THAT IS HOW DIFFERENT I LOOK AT HOME!!!!!!! plus specs.

and my spec is no ordinawy spec!!!!!

this is the spec that maintain my eyesight at 200 for one year EL O EL.

plus i actually wear pyjamas and walk around the house like (-_-") the whole day lol.

SO IF YOU WANTO LEPAK GIVE ME A CALL!!! AT LEAST GIVE ME A CHANCE TO WASH MY HAIR!!!! HAHAHAAHAH.

i jz found out something about teenagers nowadays. WE ARE ALL MADE OUT OF SHIT. we only know how to enjoy, bcuz thats all our parents give us. we have all the time in the world to do some good learn some crap for this holidays but what are we doing?

1) wearing pyjamas and walking around like (-_-") around the house everyday wtf
2) complaining about the reopening of school to anyone who is equally lifeless
3) being online the whole day and getting excited when there is like one notification on facebook bcuz it means somebody is talking to you and acknowledging your existance which is now equivalent to an ant
4) go outttt have funnn have some more funnnn get wastedddd and think you're so coooooool cuz u are nao pukinggg down a toiletttt coz of alcoholll so coooooooooooool

maybe YOUUU think its okay to rot and hang around until school reopeens. but not me. not crystal gaaaaaaaan!!!!!! NOT ANYMORE AT LEAST!!!!!!!!

I WILL :-

1. learn how to play CHERRY BLOSSOM TIME- KOTARO OSHIO on the guitar HAHAHAHA. im laffing bcuz i don even know how to play the guitar. i always said i will marry anyone who can play that song on the guitar for me cuz it is too damn good and i never get bored of it in fact i want it at my wedding/baby shower/funeral. T_T since im not into gettin any guy to play tat for me for now and want to marry myself, so i think, why not i learn myself. so yah, i want to learn guitar!!! by the end of this holidays, i will at least know how to strum. or something. lol. heee.

2. compose a song! HAHAHAHAHAHA. all i do is listen to songs on the radio and if i like them i play them back on the piano! i feel like trying something new... lol.. and if i really get the balls, i will post it up... HAHAHAHA....

3. LEARN A LANGUAGE!!!! LEARN SOME KOREAN!!!! lol. you ppl dont potong my stim by saying KENOT ONE LA!!!!!!! bcuz i haf determination. and time. since i finished prince of persia the ps2 game. until i buy the next prince of persia i will learn korean!! lol.

4. lose some weight....... haih...... damn sad. i was so skinny last time now im jz a big ball of fats.. dam sad!!!!! so nao i swim. but wats the point?! if after swimming i eat like... haih.. anyways jz lose some weight laa...

5. stop cursing.... HAHAHAAHAHA...

omg my mum jz caught me being online at 4am!!!!!!!!! ALL SHE DID WAS STARE AT ME LOL FOR LIKE A FEW SECS AND THEN WENT INTO THE TOILET HAHAHAA.... SHE LOOKED QUITE STONED I FELT LIKE TAKING A PICTURE HAHAHAHAA

hello! i, crystal gan ai wen, will now stop bein the queen of denial. i have a habit of NOT acknowledging the past or people from the past bcuz 1)i hate it 2) my ego too big dont like to admit they managed to hurt me 3) want to forget but most of the time end up remembering the most

and i miss school lol aint school entertaining HAHAHAHAA

love my ear *O*

this is the only time i camwhored when i studied for pmr.

and tis was b4 extra class mr brian tuition science HAHA.

dam hardcore. nvr came online at all. the first thing after school is book, book after book! even if i went out for dinner i would drag a book with me. toilet, walk the dog, etc. and i would get dam agitated at myself if i were to fall asleep lol jialat.

so if i dont get straight As, really, _|_ to the very max...

no matter how shitty the education system of our country we must abide to it bcuz!!!!! we are currently in the dam country lol. and believe it or not, i actually enjoyed the whole studying process!!! HAHAHAA. felt lost after the stupid exam ok!!! HAHAHA.

i am constantly being exposed to the things i can never obtain grrrrrrrrrr makes me mad. i need a brighttttttttt futureeeeee, big big house, big big farrrrrrrm.

4.30am!!!!!!!!!

OMG IM THE MOST LIFELESS TEENAGER HAIH

sayo to the nara!

random.....

2009-11-23T09:05:00.000-08:00

"WAH YOU WENT SWIMMING ALONE AH? SO SCARY!!!!!!" - words of a girl who lives under a rock. ( ANGELA LIM )

anyways wtf i just TRIED to read my previous post it was very hard to read like WAHHH everything was jumbled up suddenly nasi goreng suddenly porn suddenly oscar its like i dun even get wat im tryin to say lol..

do you? *O*

SO HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS 3.05AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went swimming again today HAHAAHAHA I LIKE

AFTER SWIMMING HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

yes lol everything.

then came home to laksa, tau fu fa, tong sui dan sebagainya..

IM THE FIRST ONE IN HISTORY TO GAIN WEIGHT AFTER EXERCISE. pukitiao. cannot resist saying tat cuz it sounds so vulgar and cute. BOO HON WAI POLLUTED ME!!!!!! pukitiao

anyways i dont like guys who call girls bitch U_U! have i said this before? i somehow kenot stand it!!! even for a person whose vocabulary is so flowery and cute like mine. its like, guys who do that, they do not respect the girl. in a very scary way. but somehow when girls call each other that its like BFF TOGETHER FOREVER TOTALLY SPIES GIRLFRIEND XOXO U KNOW U LOVE ME GOSSIP GIRL kind of thing u know?

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just my opinion.

weirdddddd. do you know how to manipulate words? if you do, life would be an easierrrrr place for youuuuuuuuuu.

i jz found this photo wtf i look so stoned

freaking stoned.

LOOK DAM CHINESE RITE!!!!!!!

MATA SEPET HIDUNG MUNCUNG MULUT ITIK!!! ^_^VV

MY TEDDY SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOES HE NOT REMIND YOU OF THE TEDDY FROM MR BEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GO SLEEP CUZ I SERIOUSLY DAM TIRED I ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP JZ NOW WHILE SURFING NET IN DAD'S OFFICE WHILE PLAYING HAPPY AQUARIUM..

GAN OUTSIDE MADAFACKA

SWIMMING MAKES ME HAPPY!!!!

2009-11-21T04:04:00.000-08:00

SO TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!! GOD TOOK AWAY MY INTERNET CONNECTION while i was loading my movies/taiwanese drama/korean drama/ peter chao etc. -__-!! but i could still play bejewelled blitz on facebook dam weird how come.

i was being damn hysterical started screaming hee hee cuz i am an attention deprived child. NOT. bcuz life suddenly became meaningless!!!! AT LEAST MY BROTHER COULD STUDY CUZ HE WAS HAVIN EXAMS!!!!!!! i could do nothing wtf. bcuz, everybody knows, i dont use my phone. i dont text, i dont call. i oni text/call when neccessary. bcuz 1) radiation. 2) i hate text messaging bcuz i tend to wait for replies and dont reply them and then ppl end up hating me cuz they dont get my reply wtf

and i dont really watch tv. cuz computer IS tv. HAHAHAHAHA

omg i sound so lifeless. so i decided to go swimming on wednesday!!!!!!!!! GUGUGAGA

wanted to sleep early on tuesday cuz in order to go swimming, i hafta wake up early to follow dad to office cuz kiara club is around there.... DAMANSARA ^_^!!! but i slept at 3 bcuz i woke up at 2 wtf.

why did i sleep so late? was busy watching porn downstairs HAHAHAHAA NOLAH!!! was watching THE READER. YOU UNDERAGE DONT WATCH OKEH!!!! kate winslet dam saggy wtf. but uh. great performance!!! OSCAR OKAY. lolol

ANYWAYS I AM SO DAM CURIOUS ABOUT THAT MOVIE TEETH ADMA TOLD ME ABOUT. ITS ABOUT A VAGINA WITH TEETH HAHAHAHA. "YOU RAPE ME, I BITE YOU!!!" PENETRATE PENETRATE MUNCH. FREAKING WEIRD. AWARD WINNING OK!!!! THE AWARD WINNING VAGINA!!!! HAHAHAAHHAHAA YEE SEEN I NO U LIKE!!!!

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anylalalahoos.

reached club at 10am. swam until 1pm. HAHAHAHAHHAHAA SEMANGAT WARRIOR SEJATI!!!!! breast stroke sana free style balik. i felt like a free breast HAHAHAHAHA. GEDDIT? BREAST STROKE + FREESTYLE = FREE BREAST -_- wtf.

anyways dam kiasu la couldnt stop bcuz in the lane beside mine, this guy swimming to and fro NON STOP FOR LIKE, 50 LAPS OK. TERPEGUN TAHAP MATA BERKILAU. AND WHEN HE FINALLY GOT UP. OLD MAN WTF. SURE LIBIDO DAM HIGH HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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lalalalala finished showering

walked all the way to clubhouse for nasi pataya :D

started raining -____________-

plus i was running in circles cuz i didnt know where was the tempat makan di bowling sana dengan nasi pataya yang amat sedap kerana saya terlupa...............

anyways. i made it after some time -_-

waitin for my pataya :D

DO YOU IZ LIKE ME NAILS?

read.....

nasi pataya takin a shitload of time...........

let me teach you how to drink coke sadly

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then after that i had serious stomach ache HAHAHAHAA. while payin for the rice i was aching to go to the toilet YES CHARGE ON ACCOUNT LA STUPID WOMAN HOW MANY TIMES DO I NEED TO SAY?????????????????

had a good time in the toilet before my dad picked me up HAHAHHAHAA

then went to dad's office hyperventilated and went online for a while then dad brought me to sunway pyramid to buy pants bcuz he says i am embarassing him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH FLOWERY SHORTS LA WTF.

then he passed me to mum who works in sunway =O then he went to dinner with some german doods. then i ate paste with mum. then mum ignored me while we ate pasta. then i continued talking to myself.

then i took a random pic when mum was tryin on clothes

then we went home

then i went to sleep

END.

IM SORRY, BUT, I HAVE TO SAY THIS.

I WANT TO WATCH NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and fck you people, dont you dare call my cellphone, my house phone my whatever phone, my fathers phone when im in the house even. MULTIPLE TIMES.

CUZ I DONT LIKE THE SOUND OF RINGING OK???????????????????? FCK YOU PEOPLE MAN. IT MAKES ME... FEEL.. IMMENSELY.. DISTURBED.

oh yah adma i was wearing ur shirt again sorry!!!!!!!! cuz it was the oni one downstairs and i had to be fast cuz i woke up late!!! so i jz grabbed it!!! LOVE YOU TOO ADMA!!!

OKAY! RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS!!!! BYE!!!!!

BOOOO!!!!!!

2009-11-20T12:47:00.000-08:00

take a look at my header! ITS DIFFERENT! GUGUGAGA!!!!

if you are in it, congratulations! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

been swimming alone lately to and fro to and fro. no pause. no thoughts. just movement.

first it was hard. it took awhile for me to gain momentum.

guess you become what you practise.

i hate november 15th. REALLY, I DO.

"My sister's keeper" is killing me!!!! LITERALLY RIPPING ME APART. i am so emotional sometimes i scare myself. if i see two squirrels playing in the park i could get emotional bcuz it is so cute. i also get emotional bcuz nowadays, i dont really see butterflies around. do you notice? THERE ARE NO MORE BUTTERFLIES!!!! JUST MOTHS?!!?!?!!! and dragonflies too. where. are. they!!!

MY TURTLE IS ALRIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I AM TURNING INTO... TAT EMO THING. TAT EMO THING WHO BLOGS AH!!!!!! HAHAHAAHAHA LAU CHIA SING HELP ME!!!!!

anyways not really appropriate for me to blog rite now its 5AM ^_^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY MUM WILL MURDER ME IF SHE WAKES UP. bcuz she jz educated me on the importance of sleep. i assured her i get at least 11 hours of sleep a day. she says "HELLO GIRL. ITS NOT THE HOURS. ITS THE TIMING??????????? AND WAT TIME DO YOU GO TO SLEEP? SEVEN???" no ma, just six. wtf

i have alot to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY. i think im ready to put it in words!!!!!!! AND!!!! PICTURES!!!! STUPID FON DOWNSTAIRS I AM LAZY!!!!

my fon is so retarded right now there is nothing no one can do to help. i jz pray hope wish with all my heart i got straight As for pmr. then ill ask for an iPhone ^_^!!!! despite the fact that they are exploding all over the world.

MY MAID HAS A NEW FON. HOW? MY MAID IS ALWAYS ON THE FON. I HATE IT WHEN SHE IS TOKING ON THE FON AND ACTING LIKE I KENOT HEAR HER. BCUZ HELLO???????? I CAN HEAR YOU. AND I DON LIKE WAT I HEAR. AND NO. I HATE HOW UR SO CALLED BOYFRIEND LOOKS LIKE. HE LOOKS LIKE A SEX MANIAC.

ANYWAYS.

swimming alone = crystal gan happy = world peace ^_^

AND EDWARD BOO HON WAI I KNOW YOU ARE ABC123 IN MY CBOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU LIE YOUR BALLS WILL FALL OFF.

eh. no balls to fall off in the first place..

too bad so sad....

2009-11-16T08:58:00.000-08:00

WHY AM I THE KIND OF PERSON WHO GETS ATTACHED TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL/THING THAT I HAVE MADE CONTACT WITH?!!?!!?!

THAT MAKES ME VULNERABLE. IF YOU WERE TO STEAL MY SHORTS OR HURT MY DOG I WOULD GO HYSTERICAL. btw my dog is damn fat now rolling all over the place OMG WHY IS IT SO FAT?!?!!?!

if we have breathed the same air, and you were to vanish from this world, i would feel insanely distressed. thank you.

the atmosphere today was horrific. glad i got to catch a last glimpse of him.. and i wish with all my heart his parents would recover from this tragedy. but then again, death has a way of changing things forever. doesnt it?

especially if it happened twice.

2009-11-15T01:48:00.001-08:00

its amazing how an event can alter the lives of certain people forever, while others remain oblivious to its effect.

woke up to devastating news.

it just hit me. even I might die tomorrow. why let a minute past thinking of the what ifs? why choose to fill your heart with sadness, when you know, happiness is a choice?

RIP..

miss you, we will

:D

2009-11-14T13:18:00.000-08:00

Personality type : ENFP

outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking, good at getting people to have fun, pleasure seeking, irresponsible, physically affectionate, risk taker, thrill seeker, likely to have or want a tattoo, adventurous, unprepared, attention seeking, hyperactive, irrational, loves crowds, rule breaker, prone to losing things, seductive, easily distracted, open, revealing, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, attracted to strange things, non punctual, likes to stand out, likes to try new things, fun seeker, unconventional, energetic, impulsive, empathetic, dangerous, loving, attachment prone, prone to fantasy

favoured careers :

performer, actor, entertainer, songwriter, musician, filmmaker, comedian, radio broadcaster/dj, some job related to theater/drama, poet, music journalist, work in fashion industry, singer, movie producer, playwright, bartender, comic book author, work in television, dancer, artist, record store owner, model, freelance artist, teacher (art, drama, music), writer, painter, massage therapist, costume designer, choreographer, make up artist

disfavored careers:

data analyst, scientist, researcher, financial advisor, business analyst, govt employee, office manager, mathematician, investment banker, office worker, computer tech, it professional, network engineer, strategist

ITS 5.21AM!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAAHAAHAHA. I WOKE UP AT 2.12AM 8D

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FULL POST MEHBEH TOMOROOO? OKEHHHHH? OKEHHHHHH.

CHIA SING = THINKER. PUIK!!!! CRYSTAL GAN = INSPIRER = WORLD PEACE

^_^VV~~~~~~

2009-11-08T09:48:00.000-08:00

I CAN ONLY BLOG UNDER VERY SPECIAL CIRCUMSTANCES.

I CAN ONLY BLOG...WHEN MY EMOTIONS ARE SHOOTING LIKE SPERMS IN VARIOUS DIRECTIONS.

YOU SEE. NOW, IM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT IM FEELING. I JZ KNOW I WOULD STAB A SQUIRREL TO DEATH WITH A PENCIL.

KIDDING!!!!!!! I WUD NEVER DO TAT TO A LIVING THING. I MIGHT DO IT TO EDWARD BOO THO. BUT NEVER A LIVING THING.

WAT IS THIS HYPE ABOUT JUSTIN BIEBER?!?!!?! IT GETS ON MY NERVES. IS HE KYUTE, IS HE ADOWABLE? NO. I DONT THINK SO. SORRY BIBI BOY BUT WE DONT NEED ANOTHER HANNAH MONTANA.

WHY AM I DRAGGING HIM INTO THIS? WHY IS THIS POST TOTALLY IN CAPS? WHY? DONT ASK ME, BCUZ I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW.

i am on a frenzy!!!!!!!!! i hate you.

maybe it's your ignorance.

but i hate you all the same.

burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn

your happiness is an eyesore.

BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN

2009-11-03T23:55:00.000-08:00

i like anger.

i like it when anger floods my veins, disabling every other emotion.

when one is angry, the need to be rational vanishes.

THUS, the fun.

you dont deserve to be happy.

we, dont deserve to be happy.

2009-10-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

it's so hard, trying to please everyone around you

let me drown in my own sins

syiok sendiri lol

2009-10-25T10:04:00.000-07:00

Here is the analysis:

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

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DOG
The most favorite pet of all time is definitely the dog. Having a pet dog suggests that you are a friendly person who likes talking to people. You are outspoken and don't have any secrets or bias opinions. People like to be around you because you are sincere and loving. You don't like to say anything to hurt other people's feelings.

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Vanilla
You are friendly and easygoing. People feel comfortable around you so it is not a surprise that many friends surround you. You have high self-esteem and will not let anyone get you down.

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Here is the analysis:

He's the typical guy that you normally would see in today's society, nothing too spectacular. In fact, you really have to concentrate in picking him out among the crowd. He's also easy going, has a sophisticated taste. He isn't boring or anything like that. Just that he would tend to be a little humble, has his own independent views, but keeps it to himself. If the situation requires, he can step forward and really make an impression on others.

The woman of his dream must not be the helpless lady type or too conservative, but must be a fighter with high perseverance. Women who are the fragile type or too ladylike are definitely not to his taste. She must be committed to overcome any obstacle in building up a family with him. Those from a rich family is definitely out. He prefers women whose fortune are self-made. This type of guy isn't selfish at all, but a real social contributor one can say. Don't worry, his requirements aren't really that high, you may pass the test you know.

HAHAH I AM NOT FRAGILE ALRITE =D

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Red
You like to go to parties and enjoy them even more when they are fun and full of people. You have a lot of energy and are extremely enthusiastic about life.

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Named after a famous person
Selecting a name also given to a famous person or a TV character like Madonna, Beckham or Clinton, indicates that you have determination and high expectations for your future. You rise to any challenge.

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Here is the analysis:

If you try to change the subject when you are being complimented or you simply ignore it, this means that you don't like to pretend and you cherish authenticity. You feel that saying nice things to someone is merely an attempt to please the listener. You don't believe there is truth in compliments, and think that the complimenter must want something in return. You have good self-esteem and aren't afraid of criticizing, or being criticized.

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Here is the analysis:

You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

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Here is the analysis:

You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

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Your emotional controlled rate: 37%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

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Here is the analysis:

A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who are unbridled and free
In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being moody. Blowing hot and cold in love is exciting.
The impression you'd like to give to your lover is optimistic.
One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being ruthless, cold-blooded or ironic.
The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is one where you can talk about everything and anything. No secrets are kept.
Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
About marriage, you are quite pessimistic. You don't think a happy marriage exists anymore.
About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.

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You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.

You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.

YOUR LOVE

Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

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Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:

Family
Pride
Career
Love
Money

HAHAHAHAH ERROR LA. MONEY FIRST LMFAO.
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Here is the analysis:

Your own personality is loyal.
Your partner's personality is cunning.
Your enemy's personality is pest.
What you think about sex is night.
What you think about your own life is endless.

HAHAHAHAHAHH!!
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Here is the analysis:

You are easy to understand.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: peak.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is small.
Glass means fragile personality.
You are also down-to-earth.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.

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Here is the analysis:

You are an outgoing and cheerful person. Although you get frustrated sometimes, you get through hard times easily and are joyful again.

Your friendly personality makes you attractive in the eyes of the opposite sex, but this makes your spouse feel insecure. Your lack of emotion is a disadvantage, but your candor has made you popular.

Friends of your gender find it hard to understand you because of your innocent thinking. But this is your advantage as it attracts members of the opposite sex who have the same personality as you.

see! innocent thinking :)

1.43am~

T_____T

2009-10-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

BOOB HON WAI ASKED ME TO WATCH THIS MOVIE LAST YEAR.

been wanting to watch it since forever.. but kept forgetting. anyways. 2009 = busy year okay!!!

since i am finally lifeless.

it was around... 3am. i decided to watch it.

AWWW!!!!!! EVERYTHING IS SO CUTE!!!! UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS!!!!!!!!!

OMG... WTF..............

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this went on until 5am lol

woke up. my eyes --> O_O

LOOOOOOOOOOoooOOOOOOOooOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooOOOL

to those who CLAIM I AM MANLY, HAH!!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO GIRLY OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYS I AM GOING TO RUN AWAY FROM CHIA SING THE NEW BORN HAMSTER NOW CUZ I NEVA BLOG ABT BOOTINYPENIS HAHAHAHAAHAA ( she called u tat not me ah!!!!!!!)

yet.

for now i am busy with uh... scientific astronomical.. research....

and how to overcome global warming.

ANDDDDDDDD I WANTTTTTT TO SAYYYYYYYYYY MY STOMACHHHHHHHHHHH HURTSSSSSSSSSS LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

short post

2009-10-16T02:35:00.000-07:00

i have lost all the inspiration to blog!

for now.

PMR IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss pmr. bcuz with pmr around i had a goal, something in mind.

now im jz a lifeless little girl...

MEH!!! HEHEHEEHE

anyhoos!!! its always like that. when people finally acquire something they've wanted for the longest time. in this case, freedom. lol. i wish nothing more than to let it go =_=....

LETS ALL STUDY FOR SPM HAHAHAHAHAA

life is worth risking once in a while ;p

I DONT SHISHA MUCH OKAY!!!!! me good girl x1000000...

i am dam nerdy one... 94 for sej one... HAHAHAHAAHAA. here is where ham ham comes in and says "BUT I 100 WOR" -___-....

anyways. getting a job sooooooon!!!! HAHAHAA I LOVE BEING BUSY AND EARNING MONEY SO THERE YOU GO!!!!!!!!

i have no ass!

i shall go run+jog+get an ass now.

bye.

more to commmeeeeeeeeeeeee

*edit*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THUNDER IS ROARING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BETTER NOT RAIN I TELL YOU BETTER NOT RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-20T09:58:00.001-07:00

I GOOGLED PMR!!!!!! I HAVE FINALLY LOST IT!!!!!!

oh and the platypus is a vertebrate. stupid book.

n i found tis website LMFAO.

its basically where everyone loses it and complains lol.

Weak Student : Hu can help me in PMR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLS

Sofea : I didn’t like to speak english although i’m very good in that subject.My main reason, we’re malaysians should have our own identity although we are in different religion, state and nation.So,...... *one whole bunch of malay shit*

i didnt likes to spoke england too.... pfft

some dude :

Metafora->abstrak/konkrit
1.Anafora..front1..
2.Epifora…at the back1
3.Responsi…middle 1
4.Repitasi…repeatition..(Saya suka kamu kerana kamu suka saya)
Saya and Kamu repeat..
5.Unsur Bunyi..Aliterasi and Asonansi
6.Nada->melankolik,patriotik,sinis…
7.Bentuk ->terikat or bebas..
for pantun and syair terikat..
8.Diksi..bahasa klasik,istana…arab..

Maths..
Listen to wat teacher taught u..
Easy only..

giving tips lol. i jz toook a small part of it.

not bad quite helpful HAHAHAHAHAA

OMFG : *yell* 8 subject at trial exam! 8 Es

PMR PRO : pmr so easy la. juz finished BM 1 and 2 so easy. kesan banjir. so easy

I M NOT PERFECT : 11th/08/2008

Perak will hav Trial Examination…

I dunno how 2 prepare myself 4 d exam…I`m very scared …
Wat should i do now ???
If i didnt hav a good results…my mom will kill me !!!
I dun wan die 4 d exam !!!!
I only can get good results in MATHS ,
and other ….
I think i cant get good results or pass in d trial exam or PMR….
Haizzzz…So bad ….

How can i get good marks in sejarah,geografi,science,and…………
Anybody who knoe…
Plz teach me how 2 get good results….
Plzzzzzzz…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

n i tot i was crazy.

2009-09-16T08:59:00.001-07:00

ONCE UPON A TIME THERE WAS A LITTLE GIRL WHO GOT 87 FOR KH

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

sorry. cant contain my excitement. *bangga*

bcuz i haf been failing kh HAHAHAHAA. like, D okay.

I HAF HATED KH SINCE I WAS AN EMBRYO OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OGAYH!!!!!!!!!!!OOOOKEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lmfao

niways 12.01am la!!!!!!! if it were any other dumb day i wud be studying lol today the laptop is fking fast!!!!! the porn effect wearing off issit? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA KIDDING!!!!! WAT IS PORN!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYS RITE!!!!!! OMG.

I KENOT DO SCIENCE PAPAER 2 2008 AT ALL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA PANICKING LIKE SHIT JZ NOW LIKE TICK TOCK TICK TOCK................. HOW DOES ONE POSSIBLY EXPLAIN HOW PETROLEUM IS FORMED......... I SOMEHOW CANNOT PUT IT IN WORDS... TICK TOCK TICK....

then i went downstairs and brought the dogs for a walk.

btw speaking of my life rite now!!!!!

it is shit.

my maid is back in indonesia hari raya-ing so therefore it is oni me and my RETARDED BROTHER at home... the fcker oni knows how to play maple story. he is incapable of everything else. even breathing.

he becomes lvl 102 in three days -_-........

which is fking crazy if you know maple story.

so. yeah..

that leaves me to EVERYTHING.

plus im always sleepy so when i FALL ASLEEP halfway while studying i wake up with bloodshot eyes and scream at everyone. bcuz the time i used to sleep will forever be gone. will never be compensated. EVER. EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20 days to pmr WHAT THE..

and my backbone still hurts like shit

i wish i were a jellyfish!!! ^_^ hydrostatic skeleton~~~~~~~~~~

and the new teacher seriously looks like a horny snail. the way he carries his bag everywhere!!! like a shell!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHA SO FKING FUNNY

tomoro going for math like 5 hours math lol 5 hours math tuition!!!!!

the teacher DAM WEIRD.

i text : hello teacher!!! crystal here. tomoro got extra class math rite? anyone else going ah?

his reply : ok

-_-

pmr is going down!!!!!!!!!!!

bye

the grass is always greener on the other side?

2009-09-16T08:19:00.001-07:00

im sorry.

i do not feel the need to acknowledge my feelings.

i loathe.

having to feel emptiness over the absence of somebody else.

i loathe.

having the need to express myself.

even HAVING feelings to express irk me.

for i am a rock. i do not need anything. that is what i like to think.

which is why.

you should.

just let me linger in my comfort zone.

a little while longer.

for you remind me of the things i'm missing.....

muka miang lol

2009-09-02T05:39:00.001-07:00

BYE FOREVER ONI TO BE BACK THE NEXT DAY.

CAN YOU GUYS SUGGEST WAYS TO.. OVERCOME MY SHORT ATTENTION SPAN?

PARAMESWARA ISNT DOING TOO WELL...

so are the spanars and pipes in kh wtf

BYE OFF TO BURN THE LAPTOP URGH!!!!!!

WHY DID MY DAD GET ME THIS

WHY?!

OK I TAKE TAT BACK LOL BYE

35 days

wasiat

2009-09-01T07:41:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder why people never fail to fall apart

have i told you i cannot stand people who call their lovey doveys pigs? wtf? pigy piggy oink oink go sleep norhxxxx~ don snore snore too loud yah!!! ^^ dont fart in ur dreams yeah pig pig~*! oink oink norrhxx~8~*~*`8*~8`8~**~*~~~~*

and guys who go like this ^^? EI DAM GAY WEI. LIKE ELTON JOHN AND PETER PAN BLENDED TOGETHER.

"want to go out wit me ma? ^^"
"you are so sexy niah ^^!"
"lets make luv! ^^!!!!"

anyways i met this chiq during violin exam dont tok abt violin exam it was tres disturbing and i dont want to talk about it ever!!!!!!!!!!!

unless i pass lol. which is unlikely and 36 days to pmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways i forgotten what i wanted to say abt the chiq lol and OMG i actually woke up hyperventilating today bcuz i dreamt TOMORROW WAS PMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHAT IS PI!??!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!?!?! and who is temenggung daeng.

eh fak kh la. so many million spanars. how to remember.

this is hammer la!!!!!!! that is nat la!!!!!! i dont care what species of hammer la tukul kuku kambing this nat heksagon that!! my ass!!!!

PMR is seriously damn disturbing so disturbing i feel like pulling all my hair out now but my comb already did tat yesterday.

o_O.....................

NOT COMIN ONLINE EVER!!!!!!!!!!

i haf a timetable now thanks yu han!!!!!! eventho you so retarded but i tink i love you.

WHY AM I HYPERVENTILATING?!!?!? HONESTLY?!!?!?!?!

anyways b4 i disappear forever,

yes tis tragedy happened last friday................................

i went to some nail polish world and put on all the testers =D!!!!!!!!!

it smeared bcuz some middle aged man said "excuse me girl? you got popcorn stickin to ur skirt"

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG WTFFFFFFFFFFFF

bisexual flower

NEW HAIR ROCKS YAHHHHHHHH? ^.^

drinking at tony roma's

eh the guy behind me DAMN hairy!!!!

my brother noticed first hahahaha could barely see the skin on his legs hahaha -.-

anyways look at my face damn round like moon. DAMN GODDAMN ROUND WEI...

hot chiq i met from world stage :P

I LOOK LIKE A SHOCKED FLYING SQUIRREL LA I KNOW WTF

we bonded instaneously :) :) HEHEHE

im a rabbit!! ^_^

the pertapakan portugis in melaka lol

watched saw 5 again.

YUCK.

yo mama so fat! that when she enter the lift! it can only GO DOWN!!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

BYE FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

36 days.

till i stop hyperventilating

sometimes i amaze myself

2009-08-31T09:32:00.000-07:00

COVERING MY FACE IN SHAME LOL.

OK WAT HAPPENED WAS ME SCREAMING FOR MY MAID AND THERE WAS ALOT MORE SCREAMING WHEN SHE TRIED TO YANK IT OUT. THIS TRAGEDY OCCURED WHEN I WAS BLOWDRYING MY HAIR :(

stupid comb.

shux cow testicles.

i want food

2009-08-27T12:15:00.000-07:00

okay so its been a while and its 3.15am now and the black nail polish didn't go too well.. let's just say i think my nails are permanently damaged.

some people choose to blog about how did their day go what happened etc. some people blog for the money.. some people blog in search of fame. some people blog to flaunt their cleavage. ( YES I HAF EVIDENCE LMFAO ) some people blog bcuz they think their life is so cool so they want to share it with everyone. ( these blogs tend to be ignored ) some people blog..... just to express themselves.

so which do category do you belong to

anyways what am i doing awake at 3.19am?! old habits do die hard.

like i said the calm of the night is what i need. i love how it rains everyday now. rain = sleep. so basically i sleep whenever it rains which is bad bcuz it rains practically every day every time every second so basically i am asleep 3/4 of the time i am alive.

hello i am in this mood where i feel like ripping everything apart.

ISNT THAT SOMETHING NEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not.

like i said, there is always something to make you feel like ripping everything apart.

just a lame post before i go down and do what i really hate. turn off the modem. its freaking dark and my mind tends to visit supernatural places without my permission yet this is what i do every night.

but i will do it!!!!!!! bcuz the only time im really comfortable online is at nite and if this is the sacrifice im going to make, ill do it.

( bcuz porn loads faster at nite ) HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHA

oh, anyways people do change. i used to think they become more of who they really are. but really, it doesnt work that way. things that once appealed to me makes me want to gag like shit now. i am afraid. what if one day dogs make me want to gag like shit?

anyways i am kinda a twitter whore right now.. bcuz it is really fun to type in random sentences like how my vanilla bubble tea tasted like vomit. i forgotten to mention how the bubbles.. yes. the black balls.. were too soft.

i have to wake up tomorrow at 8 and yet i am here. dont know what to do. dont know what im doing. all i can think about is food.

i really want to eat asam laksa. and pizza. with tabasco omg mmmmmmmmhm. the aircon is too cold. i think if ellen degeneres and elton john get together it would be really funny. HAHHAAH i think their kids would be retarded. and talented at the same time. tatarded!!! HAHAHAHA

get it?

retarded + talented = tatarded

WHAT THE FK HAHAHAAHAHAA GIVE ME FOOD!!!!!!!!!!

hottest couple ever

chuck bass is absolute love. how could someone be such an attractive asshole. that mother chucking basshole!

LOL :D!!!!!!!!

random much.

hungry makes me pissed.

anyways my fourth finger is longer than my second finger. for both hands. they say if your fourth finger is longer than your second, you're HOMOSEXUAL.

and i jz finished reading eclipse HAR HAR LAUGH ALL YOU WANT. and i tried putting myself in bella's shoes. any decision she makes is bound to hurt. i honestly dont know if i would choose edward over jacob. there seemed to be too much to lose.........

but then again, edward's love for bella is impossible to deny. he doesn't even blame her for kissing jacob back. he jz blames himself..... for leaving her FOR HER OWN GOOD, thus, creating a chance for jacob to fill the void. which, he EXPECTS!! would have its lasting effects.

*blinks

i should stop sleeping at 4. really. i look like a sexually deprived corpse.

BAI BAI!!!!

the reason for my absence

2009-08-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

HAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

EXTREMELY VULGAR BUT HAHAHAAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHAHA

FAKING BAD INFLUENCE TO THE WORLD BUT HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

SEVERELY RETARDED SLANG BUT HAHAAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA

WATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

2009-08-16T03:06:00.001-07:00

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHA

WATCH IT SERIOUSLY HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA

2009-08-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA WAT LANGUAGE IS TAT LMFAO FINNISH?

tousled hair with a sexay british accent

hugh dancy

THEY HAVE PICKED THE MOST SENSATIONAL LUKE BRANDON EVER!!!!!

AND YES!!!!!! CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC THE MOVIE ROCKED HAHAHAH THANKS PHOEBE KEWERBI THE HORNY PORNY WTF. I LIKE ISLA FISHER!!!!!!

makes a good rebecca bloomwood. and shes rilly pretty!!!

hilarious HAHAHAHA. ESP THE DANCING PART LMFAO. AHAHA THE FAN.

and luke brandon was a total total total turn on.

his accent............................................ IS.....

NO WONDER PPL SAY HES SEXY!!!!!!!!!!!

HES ZE ULTIMATE SUPREME ULTIMANIUM GIGAPOWER SEX GOD

2009-08-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

i dont know about you, but i tink im suicidal.

because i expect alot.

because im SURROUNDED. by PEOPLE. who GET. ALOT.

WHILE I. I, CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN, HAVE, NOTHING.

BUT THREE DOGS.

oh isnt it simply beautiful that violin exam is wat? in another ten days?

I JZ FEEL SO COMPLETELY EXUBERRRRRRRRAAAAAAANNNNNNNNTTTTT

-.-

2009-08-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

12.41am....

wat is my problem

TODAYS HISTORY HAS BEEN DRIVING ME NUTS UP THE WALL INSANE I HAVE BEEN BITING MY FINGERNAILS WITH MY HEART THUMPING THUMPING THUMPING AND MY HANDS STARTED SWEATING WHILE FLIPPING THRU EVERY PAGE FOR ANSWERS WTF

i also dono why but it starting to creep me out.

so far i've found five mistakes.

i think rite. i rilly need to slit my wrist for answering kadazandusun for the bobolian thing.

my mind was telling me. EH? SHUD BE BOBOHIZAN LA KADAZANDUSUN WEI. MUST BE QUESTION ERROR KEKEKE. BCUZ I WAS SO SURE THAT AKI KOPUNO HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH KADAZANDUSUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but noooooooooooooooooooo. it had to be murut -.-..

and this picture of a guy with a fcked up moustache. i was thinking so hard!!! cecil clementi?!!? noooooo kenot be. edward gent?.. tom cruise? wtf

IT WAS FRANK SWEETENHAM WUWUWUWUWU WTF T_T

nah. wtf

i watched horton hears a who!!!!!!!!!

OMG THIS IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL MOVIE I SWEAR IT NEARLY MADE ME CRY HAHAH I ALSO DONO WHY OMG WTF HORTON IS SUCH A HERO!!!!!!

THE MAYOR HAS 95 DAUGHTERS AND ONE SON CALLED JOJO AHAHAAA AND THEY ALL LIVE ON A SPECK. AND THE SPECK ON ZE CLOVER OMG IT IS ALL SO BEAUTIFUL LAAAAA

OH PLUS HUMOUR AHAAAA AND NOT TO MENTION ITS ALL SO CUTE AHAHA THE BUNNY WITH THE COOKIES EEEEEEK!!!! ^_^

and my dad's watching what happens in vegas.

"Was I the one who invented hip hop? No. but i was there."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

anyways. after the movie i went upstairs dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar untuk memeluk ilmu kh wtf. but then i ended up sleeping. system shut down. terminated... and then i woke up and rubbed my eyes and read about enjin. something is in my brain. it is called palam pencucuh.

what the fk is it for again!!!!

is this thing i have in my head even a brain?

2009-08-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

3.45am!!!!

old habits die hard..........

i dont understand and can never ever ever ever comprehend why after a certain period of time, i am bound to argue with people who are really really close to me, especially MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

i cant help it. everytime i voice out my opinions they voice theirs and then our opinions crash and thenn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bcuz i will faking go crazy and they will faking go mad cow disease on me AND THINK ITS FUNNY BUT OBVIOUSLY ITS NOT and then our friendship or whatever boat will sink and crash jellyfishes to death wtf

the boat will eventually float again some time later... but.

THE BOAT IS NOW RETARDED.

IT IS NOT THE SAME.

this has happen too many times.

TOLERATION ; a skill i must master

PATIENCE ; a stupid thing to have bcuz life is so short so everything must be fast and furious but i will learn it anyways....

=p =p =p!!!!

cheh. random.

tat day i went into a taxi and "GIRL. YOU ORANG SERANI YE? NAMPAK MACAM PELAKON SIAM.."

HAHAHAA PHOEBE PROVOKE PUNYA STUPID

-.-..

your disgusting presence causes serious discomfort..

and yes. i have decided to fill this void with anger.

BAI

and it is fking 4am -.-

Let me ruin your life, let me break your heart,
then I'll ask you why we can't be friends.
Let me rip your world into little pieces, let me destroy who you thought you were,
and then I'll ask if we can be friends.

breaking news

2009-08-07T02:20:00.000-07:00

LOOK WHOS STUDYING

a valid, solid reason to panic

trial fever

2009-08-06T10:11:00.000-07:00

hari ini telah berlaku mogok pelajar cina yang sangat gempak!!!!! kebanyakan orang cina form 3, terutamanya pelajar-pelajar perempuan, telah memonteng sekolah untuk menyumbat all the shit ke dalam otak masing-masing that is needed for PMR TRIALS next week in their own respectful kediaman wtf

kononnya rumah mengandungi persekitaran yang lebih tranquil dan damai

CIS

so tomorrow would be my turn =) heh, heh..

2009-07-30T09:25:00.000-07:00

the only thing i want

so unattainable

brrr

2009-07-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

it's strange.

things that were once serious addiction.. people who once played a vital role in my life...

the more i get.

the less i want.

the interest.. the need.. seems to fade away

only to be replaced by a whole new feeling.

i am annoyed.

people wont just piss off wont they

2009-07-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

goodbye wild side!!!!!!!

i bid you farewell and wtf now looking at this picture i feel so wild and reckless like im going to jump off a cliff giggling without any safety equipment... with a lollipop in my mouth...

what if i land on a racoon wtf

i just.. dont think.

i dont. i dont think of the consequences.. the effect. the impact.

which tada!!!! creates a huge reckless effect! ^_^

which = me have four piercings on my left ear now thank you very much..........

and some people. like i said. leave a big big big big impact in your life ;( the sight of them triggers something. something special for sure. a definite feeling you can never define.

EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i won creative writing!!!!! about being gobbled up by my own parents who were transformed into zombies....

hakeem won too... his one was... some policeman knocked on his door to tell him that his parents had died in a car crash.........

we are sadistic but creative people :D

i love this pic so much it brings tears to my eyes

T_______T <--- proof and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE YEE SEEN MY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ISNT SHE JUST A LOVELY LITTLE GIRL ^_^!!!!!!

...not in bed tho :P

like i said lee yee seen!!!! we haf been good friends/seckz mates since i was form 1 wahahaha =p =p =p =p but now i am very sleepy i wanna sleep so no cute dedication for you but i want you to know i love you!!!!!!!!

esp ur groping =) and happy 17th =)

and thanks for helping me get thru that hard time of my life!! and waking me up woohooohooo thanks for dousing that icy cold water on me sayang you banyak =')

YOU ROCK LEE YEE SEEN

HAF A GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love you lots ^_^

bye world!!!

pmr : 71 days

2009-07-25T09:11:00.001-07:00

these feelings are overpowering

i think i'm choking

i want to cry

2009-07-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

got bored trying to study for the new south wales exam HAHAAHA WHY AM I FREAKING OUT!!!!!!

because i am Kiasu Woman!!!! why did i answer my own question wtf

and i still cant stand eating alone in the canteen. LOSER MATERIAL OK!!!!!! HAHAHA ANGELA SHOULD DO IT MORE OFTEN ^_____^

i dont even know what to study. jz found out what onomatopoeia is though..

awesome. my brain has just expanded by 0.000001mm :)

and YES. PEOPLE OF THE WORLD. I GOT REALLY HIGH FOR MY KARANGAN. AND YES. MY KARANGAN WAS SUPER AWESOME SEPERTI ZAMAN YANG DILIPUTI ARUS MODENISASI DAN GLOBALISASI.

how come nobody believed its mine ;(...

except wei sheng he wanted to photostat it HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ROCKS!!!!!!! ^_^

i like tis pic cuz i look like a giraffe

i look like shit tall nerh!!!!!!!

or is rocyie just short

teenagers nowadays are so retarded. take pic here post pic there wtf HAHAHA I AM THE BIGGEST EXAMPLE!!!!!! -_-!!!!!!

if only i was a teenager in my dad's time...

then i would be running in some sawah padi dressed in frills... oh not to mention wit the hardcore mangkuk hairstyle!!!!

and boys with bad teeth would wave from across the sawah padi and ask us girls with mangkuk hair who... at that time will look insanely attractive to them over.. and then we'll ride bikes together and grin until our teeth fall off and scrape our knees and ACTUALLY BREATHE FRESH AIR..

and grow into very cute farmers and make babies in the sawah padi wtf

now everything is done online wtf

rocyie's heels

i am so farking nice i exchanged shoes with her cuz her feet were huring =')

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOVE ME MOU!!!!!!!

finally 170cm wahahaha WAHAHAHA WAHAHAHAHAHHAAA!!!!

the party i was two hours late to -_-.........

anyways. it was great. =)

except i didnt have any food :) nobody had the courtesy to leave me food =) LOVE YOU ALL MUAKZ

HAHAHAHA OK I ATE A FEW FRIES AND A SANDWICH BUT STILL!!!! HMMMPH!!!!!!!!!

everyone can read this blog. sometimes i am uncomfortable =/

oh and. im weak :) mentally physically and especially emotionally ooooh myyy goooodddddddd those kimekz areeee overrrpoweeerringggggg

i hate it because you make me feel so small

this small -->.

i want to kill you

2009-07-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

i faking cringed when i heard those three words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think i've developed a phobia.

2009-07-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

you intrigued me enough to keep me wanting for more

nobody does that anymore

nothing does that

NOTHING....................

I NEED A CHUCK BASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and omg what am i doing here it is 1.09am im supposed to be this nerd in bed because its just how things are supposed to be oh and my backbone hurts la fak i need a fairy godmother!!!!!!!!

AND EVERYONE WHO READS THIS BLOG DO COME TO SAB THIS SATURDAY 25th JULY FOR THE IU CARNIVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its gonna be fun i promise you

cuz ill be there :D

OKAY FAK BYE ITS LATE

REBEL

2009-07-19T09:52:00.001-07:00

DONT MESS

what makes you think you could even if you wanted to pfft

piss off

booom booom powww

2009-07-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

NOW TRY TELLING ME 12 FEBRUARY IS NOT A SEXY DATE!

2009-07-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

while i contemplated whether her words were of pure integrity

i couldn't help but overhear the lies pouring out of my mouth

one by one

with no sign of hesitation

and then i knew

2009-07-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

wow i think i am webcamgenic! HAR HAR

i really really really really really really love cheezy wedges

i need money

i owe people money

lets say i get the money i need im still gonna be poor as fak

because get money - owe people money = NO MONEY

NO MONEY = GO FAK YOURSELF

so i am stupid... a failure.... and broke..... and suffer from severe chubbiness aka F.A.T...

great.

if i die, it would be equivalent to the death of half an ant

maybe i should start learning how to tap rubber

then at least i would be equivalent to one whole ant.....

i dont want to be crystal gan

2009-07-16T08:20:00.000-07:00

I HAF A RETARDED CURFEW NOW I AM ONLY ONLINE BECAUSE MY MUM IS IN SINGAPORE AND MY DAD IS A LENIENT AND CONVINCABLE MAN SO THEREFORE I BEGGED LIKE A DOG FOR THE MODEM AND LAPTOP SO CONGRATULATIONS CRYSTAL GAN TEEHEE

i survived without the internet for TWO WHOLE DAYS

my hands are jittery as i type this for the father may pull out the modem anytime now!!!!!!

ANYTIME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really hate myself -.- really really.. hate despise loathe myself... -_-.. being 2nd best is a bitch.. good for nothing. fak...

oh and politics play a HUGE ROLE in life. i gotta learn how to kiss ass...

AND I HATE PUDU.

stupid retarded place....

saw a 60 year old woman and an early 40s man making out in kfc... the woman was really disgusting.. they couldn't keep their hands off each other...

eh. no. more like the woman was acting all shy and flirty but the man was all bold and started touching her in places where she tingled the most.. then she'll laugh.. and then go all "EHEHE!!! JGN LAH CHAYUNK"

we saw them there two days in a row ...... talk about gag-worthy porn..

and they say love is beautiful....

btw kfc in pudu smells like shit. dont know why phoebz and i keep going there. oh. wait. cuz the kfc sets are cheap. and we're always broke. and always hungry.

shit i am so fat....................................................

AND I AM SO HAPPY I UNDERSTAND ALGEBRAIC FORMULAE I TINK I COULD CRY

and i hope cikgu alang will stop calling me "gan".... and just call me jasmine bcuz i am not crystal gan la....

-__-

why am i crystal gan -__-............

my sex god..... WUHUHUHUHUHUHUH!!!!

okay. the father just screamed.

see you 13286120836218 days later :)

2009-07-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

if only i could blend this feeling of resentment with a pinch of rationality

but then again

do i want to?

i hate crossroads.

everything about me i despise.

am i expecting too much of myself?

i think i'm accustomed to failure. the taste of it feels so.... familiar.

i disgust me

boooo

2009-07-10T04:02:00.000-07:00

Blair: Chuck, aren't you done trying to destroy my night?

Chuck: Look, I should have never abandoned you. I knew I made the wrong decision as soon as your plane took off. I distracted myself all summer, hoping I wouldn't feel it, but I still do.

Blair: And?

Chuck: I was scared. I was scared that if we spent the whole summer together, just us, then you'd see.

Blair: See what?

Chuck: Me. Please don't leave with him.

Blair: Why? Give me a reason. And, "I'm Chuck Bass," doesn't count.

Chuck: Cause you don't want to.

Blair: Not good enough.

Chuck: Cause I don't want you to.

Blair: That's not enough.

Chuck: What else is there?

Blair: The true reason I should stay right where I am and not get into the car. Three words, eight letters. Say it, and I'm yours.

Chuck: I.......I........

Blair: Thank you. That's all I needed to hear.

OMG EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN THAT MOTHERCHUCKER!!!!!!

2009-07-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

I AM NOT STUPID

NOT

STUPID.

just, ignorant.

thats what i choose to believe anyways pfft..

funtabulous :D

2009-07-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

a little clue of what my friday looked like :D

OH WAIT.

EVERY FRIDAY HAHAHHAHAHAHAA

will get right back to you on that =p =p =p =p!!!!!!

also had a photoshoot by the...

SEVERELY RETARDED HAM HAM WHO RUNS WHEN THERE IS A CAT NEARBY ( 10km in sight ) AND WONT MOVE UNTIL I CARRY THE CAT AWAY ( at least 30 km away )

^_^!!!!!!!!

i love you vincent........

HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAA

will also get back to you on that :P I MEAN ABT THE PHOTOSHOOT LA OMG.

NOT VINCENT. HAHAAHAAHAH VINCENT WTF

AND OMG.

IM FAKINGER BROKE NOW OH MAI GOD AND IM STILL IN DEBT. 5 BUCKS REGINA 5 BUCKS SYAFIQ ( not planning on returning. wat!!! he has to pay for ruining my life okay ^.^ ) five bucks here five bucks there...omg shit times square la omg no la i take that back...

TIMES SQUARE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PLACE ON EARTH. WHERE ELSE CAN YOU FIND SPAGHETTHI ( DID I GET IT RITE LOL ) STRAPS ON EARTH FOR LIKE 5 BUCKS LA. WHERE.

so in no time i kinda spent 35 bucks U_U..

phoebz : WE ARE NOT GOING INTO THAT SHOP!!! WE ARE NOT!!! GOING INTO THAT SHOP!!!!
crystal : O_O... arrghh... fine..... *walks onwards
phoebz : *enters shop wtf

SEE!!! TIS IS THE POWER OF TIMES SQUARE HAHAHHAHAAHA

and phoebe succumbing to her weakness but still i would blame it more on THE RM 10 EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING ON EARTH IS SUBWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am going to study because the school just tossed an intervensi into our faces and its next week :D

and tis time. i really have to prove myself. and the existance of my brain.

because they are watching....................................................

2009-07-03T21:40:00.001-07:00

its been a while since i acknowledged that other side of me

you, managed it, yet again

thank you, for reminding me i'm only human

nevertheless

you disgust me

and always will

=/

2009-06-29T09:29:00.000-07:00

i am broke

i am in debt

i am exhausted

i am clueless

i feel nothing except the numbness of my eyelids that are threatening to close but there is so much undone

and today while phoebz and i were walking in the pudu lrt station there was this old haggard looking man who looked like he died 20 years ago there.. he was walking towards us with a walking stick... and then when he was close enough. he suddenly swinged the stick towards our direction.. acting as a barrier for us to go on wtf so dramatic

it was so sudden that phoebz and i jumped. my heart literally jumped argh wtf. and then the man started laughing -.- it was a goddamn joke -.- madness -.-

WHAT THE FUCK. DO YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY? FUCK YOU JOBLESS LIFELESS PIECE OF SHIT IF I HAD A KNIFE YOUR INTESTINES WOULD BE ON THE FLOOR OK?!!?!

sorry i am very edgy ^.^

and i miss micheal jackson...

honestly. =(

love this. rm15 gasp

"She would stare at him and feel sorrow in her heart,
yet she would also feel joy."- Nicholas Sparks

bai 12.40am

2009-06-27T18:51:00.000-07:00

I LOVE CHANEL

I LOVE COMEDY

bye going to drag dad for fish noodles now

2009-06-27T18:49:00.001-07:00

THIS IS AWESOME HAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

I LOVE NIGAHIGA HAHAHAHAHHAHAAAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAAHHAA

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heh =p

2009-06-27T17:51:00.000-07:00

its 8.51am =)

HAHAHAAH OMG WAT AM I EVEN DOING HERE TIS FEELS RETARDED

anyways. why am i even up on a 8.51am? its a sunday morning!!!

it would be becuz yesterday i fell asleep almost everywhere and everytime in the house i haf no idea why and wtf i jz answered my own ques zzzz. maybe becuz of a tough week. TOUGH TOUGH WEEK. TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH WEEK WHICH MAKES ROLLING DOWN THE HILL FULL OF SHIT SEEM LIKE NOTHING O_O!!!!

added the smiley for dramatic effect heh

fell asleep when i came back from school- 2 hours
fell asleep when i was doing math- 1 hour
fell asleep on the SOFA OF DOOM at 12am

then some idiot shook me up so i crawled upstairs and fell asleep permanently and tadaa!!! here i am wtf

im emotionally battered while watering from the nose la. and i am using my hello kitty pyjamas as tissue for the simple reason i am too lazy to move

anyways i dono la i jz kinda woke up i have jittery fingers now

I MISS MICHEAL JACKSON LA. YESTERDAY WHILE WATCHING HIS TRIBUTE I CRIED LA WHY AM I WATERING SO MUCH LATELY WTF.

but you cannot deny he is the greatest. honestly. just the best of the best. his moonwalk is crazy happening. and...... his act where he looks like he's defying gravity.. the one where he just bends all the way to the front... and bends back up wtf like damn straight movement wtf damn cool

RIP MJ :(

damn. now i know how they felt when elvis presley said sayonara.. actually not really cuz the man couldnt moonwalk and didnt live in neverland... but still.

been VERY VERY VERY CRAZY LATELY OMG. i realize i dont go back on a friday early anymore... must keluar!!! must chill outside a little while!!!!!!! wtf

nasreen phoebz MURUKU WHO CAME BACK FROM MIDGET LAND FOR HOLIDAY AND KIDNAPPED US FROM SCHOOL WAHAHHAAHA.......... dammm... define crazy. been reaching home at....8pm ;P

sneak peek ;p

the upper one is fake HAHAHAHA BUT DAM COOL LOOKS REAL RITE OMG BUT IT IZ GOING TO BE REAL SOON I HAF ENUF BALLS TO DO IT I KNOW!!! I KNOW I DO AND PIERCINGS ARE A FETISH OMG ONCE YOU START YOU CANT STOP *O*!!!!!

anyways. will get back to that ^_^!!!!!

i like the visit to the vivaldi penthouse. sunway's project. mums in charge =p =p!!!!! one unit is easily 3.5 million..

invading vivaldi showhouse

the spaghetthi they served I CAN NEVER FAKING SPELL SPAGHETHHI LA IS IT THE CORRECT SPELLING?!!?!?!!?!?!

i took four little mangkuks *O* and 1 chocolate cake... 3 carrot cakes..... 5 bread with cheese + toppings... 5 cups of coke..2 cups of sprite...

then i went for lunch

wtf

this part of the room is enuf for you to play hide and seek kao kao you could hide forever ^_^

no commento

somehow like tis pic

ROCKS LA

no commento abt the way im standing

AWESOME SHITZ

AWESOME SHITZ x 12386192836112

love this.

i could be watching tv then mum comes and complain. i push her out and slam the glassdoor in her face and live inside there forever.

~PWNED~

^____^!!!!

LOVE x SIX HUNDRED AND FORTY PLS

they also have a garden in the air thing.... but i didnt take a pic T_T

wonder why.

meet my twin ruby wtf

MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BWAHAHAHAHAAHA

anyways when we went out there was this sign that said NO TAKING PHOTOGRAPHS ^_^

and there were cctvs everywhere -_- typical -______-

anyways my hingus just reached the keyboard i haf no idea how

it wont stop leaking

make it stop

bai

2009-06-15T03:58:00.000-07:00

omg what is my problem i went to sleep at 3am or so last night or morning i dono omg i am so confused but what am i doing here seriously the moon is not up the sky is not dark im not supposed to be online im supposed to be studying like the nerd i am

I AM A NERD LA

WOKE UP AT 5.30 FEELING LIKE SHIT LA OMG I FEEL LIKE SHIT NOW IM SO TIRED

T_____________T

ANYWAYS I WAS ALL SMILEZ BECAUSE HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE DIAGNOSTICS EXAMS OMG. watch as i score ( HAHAHAHA )

budak sab baik konon!!!!!!!!!!!!

and why am i uploading picz on facebook when im supposed to have a life and study for tomorrow because the subjects i loathe most are tomorrow ^____^

BUT I WAS ALL SMILEZ HEE HEE AND NASREEN SAYS I LOOK DIFFERENT THEN I LOOKED AT HER AND REALIZED SHE LOOKS DIFFERENT TOO!!!!!

phoebe looks the same bah sick of seeing her HAHAHAAHAHHAA

angela looks shit weird :D as usual. HAHAHAHAHAHA

YUHAN...

why dont you be the judge :D

OMG

TIME IS RUNNING OUT ARGH I NEED TO TAKE BATH BAI

2009-06-11T14:04:00.000-07:00

OMG ITS 5.05am

FAK

FAIL OK

I WANTED TO SLEEP AT 3AM I SWEAR LOL OMG x1283691286312 PLS

SOMETHING CAME UP ARGH!!!!

T______T

daniel the maccaroni boy if you mock me and my eyebags one more time i will smack you!!!!!!!

bai 5.07am lol

rawrrrr

2009-06-11T05:28:00.000-07:00

ABSOLUTE LOVE TOTAL ADDICTION

ITS 8.35PM!

i'll only officially go online later because this doesn't feel right.

I'm going to go downstairs. AND OPEN A BOOK. NOT JUST ANY BOOK. A SEJARAH BOOK. AND READ. AND LEARN. EVERYTHING. AND ABSORB EVERY SINGLE SHIT I NEED TO KNOW. AND CONCENTRATE. AND ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN. GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MATH. ABOUT ALGEBRAIC FORMULAE. ABOUT NUMBERS. YES CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN. YOU DO THAT.

okay. okay. OKAY!!!!! GO CRYSTAL GAN!!!!!! ARGHRAAHH

but first i have to have dinner

anywayz omg. i love blair waldorf's character lol. shes so bitchy and witty! its the bitchyness that makes her, her. and i love how she's so prim and proper and bitchy at the same time and the way she dresses argh IM GOING TO GET A BOW FOR MY HAIR TOOO!!!!!! and jenny is a wannabe lol and serena is so nice!!!!! AND NATE IS TOO GORGEOUS TO BE HUMAN AND DAN IS SO DECENT!!!! vanessa gets on my nerves and DUH. GEORGINA. HAS TO FCKING DIE. FCK. AND CHUCK IS SO SEXY LA WTF SWWWWWWOOOOOOONNNNNNNN

but disgusting at the same time. but just. he wears disgusting pretty well.

yes im only at season one lol

THX PHOEBZ FOR THE DVD WOHOHOHOO!!!!!!

and it just occured to me that i have not bragged about passing the shitty piano exam!!! when the whole class failed except another girl who passed it too argh!!! WHY DIDNT THE BEECH FAIL!!!!!!! THEN I CAN BE LIKE... THE ONLY PASSING FELLA WHEEEE HAHAHAAH

so i guess im on my way to becoming a yamaha piano teacher huh.

WOHOHOHOHOHO!!!!!

actually i'd rather not but it's always better to have more options for the future =D

anyways one down pmr and violin exam next!!!! 2009 has not failed me so far i repeat 2009 HAS NOT FAILED ME SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!

TAKE THAT!!!!!!

and i better rectify my sleeping habits starting from tonite HAHAHAA im sleeping early tonite as early as 3AM OK!!!!!!

SERIUS!!!!!

AND NO!!!!!!!!! MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUN!!!!!

NO MORE CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( oh btw check out my cum-face and the KID beside nasreen actually has cum on his face HAHAHAHAHAH )

BAI!!!!!!

2009-06-10T13:27:00.000-07:00

hi its 5am and im awake like --> O_O

yesterday i dozed off eventually at 6.30am.

wat is wrong with me wei my sleeping patterns are totally faked. i wake up at 3pm and watch gossip girls. until 7pm. then i try to do some math which usually does not work.

sometimes i think my parents give me too much freedom. or do they even care. omg it hurts. it just occured to me they do not care omg i think i can hear my heart breaking now its being ripped apart by some unknown force omg i am no different than an orphan boohoohooo.

my left shoulder hurts like fak.

i am hungry like fak.

i am not sleepy at all.

NOT. AT. ALL.

and so is phoebe lol!!! HAHAHAHA WE ARE WALLOWING IN OUR OWN POOL OF SELF-PITY SIGH LIFE CAN BE SUCH A FEMALE DOGGG T_T

and now its 5.18am!

and the worst pasta on earth says im crazy for staying up so late every night lol HES JZ JEALOUS!!! CUZ HE CAN NEVER EVER DO IT LIKE I DO LOL. my eyebags are a symbol of coolnezz. i have too much of a life to sleep. SLEEP IS FOR WUSSIEZ!!!

NO OFFENSE TO THOSE WHO ARE SLEEPING HAHAHAHAHAA

~PWNED~

and yee seen likes messing with cucumberz!!!!!! while i like being treated like an animal wtf. stupid facebook quizzes HAHAAHAHAHA eh yee seen! innocence not so attractive after all huh ;P

IM FAKING HUNGRY LA I SWEAR

I FEEL LIKE AN AFRICAN KID LA JZ IMAGINE AFRICAN KID TAK MAKAN FOR LIKE DAYS OK AND I ONI TAK MAKAN FOR LIKE 5 HOURS

SHIT KAO USELESS

BAI

5.30am

it's 4.45am

2009-06-09T10:44:00.000-07:00

i dunu what i have been doing lately lol honestly LOOL

anyways been hanging out at vi alot lately loooooool hanging around with retarded people has affected me in a deep scary way ok!!!!!!! anyways there's a purpose why i go to vi ok. i do not go there to fling boobz and naik miang ok wtf. OH SHIT I CAN PRACTICALLY HEAR EDWARD BOO SAYING "DO YOU EVEN HAVE BOOBZ TO FLING" LOLOLOLOL _|_!!!!!!

theres a purpose. and you have to find out. on. VI's. IU. DAY.

WHICH IS THIS SATURDAY OMG EVERYONE MUST GO OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYZ OMG TIMES SQUARE IS ABSOLUTE LOVE x SIX HUNDRERD AND FORTY TWO OK!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING IS SO GODDAMN CHEAPZ AND CUTE!!!!!

I FOUND A SHIRT IT WAS LIKE RM2.90. ISNT THAT JZ SICKENINGLY CHEAPZ OMGZ.

OK PICZ AT RANDOM LOL!!!

OMG I WANT THIS SHIRT HAHA

AKIBAT MENJADI MONYET PANJAT PAGAR VI ROFLLLLL

AFTER BOWLING ARGH BOWLING SUCKS!~!!!!!!!!

BYE BYE SHY-SHY AND ACTIVITY T______T

yes. those are the names..

MICKY T_T!!!!

if you love something, let it go....

vi's big ass mirror ARGH!!!! ABSOLUTE LOVE x FOUR HUNDRED AND FORTY TWO PLS

THE "I WANT TO EAT YOU BUT IM KINDA SLEEPY SO COME HERE" LOOK

aww isnt she cuteeeeeeee ^_^ ISNT MY BABY JZ PUUURFECTTT? ^______^

lol

SELF PROCLAIMED TORRES.

wanted to kick the ball lol -____________-""!!!!!!!

THERE.

-_______________-"""""

OMG BOWLING WITH THEM IS DAMN SUPER SHIT FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAH SHAFIE AND HIS SPIN BALL HAHAHAHAA ^___________^ OMG SHITZ x239

shit. i cannot tahan already. i am laffing alone in this room.

am i not intellectual ^_^

ANYWAYS I THINK IM FAKING CRAZY SINCE ITS 5AM LOL WTF

bros bday

6th june argh the omen!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEEEEEEEEEEEECH!!!!

thank me for getting you hooked on gossip girls X)!!! LOL.

lol

OMG THIS PASTA IS LIKE THE BEST IN THE WORLD ITS ORGASMIC LOL SORRY ITS TERBALIK I DONO WHY I ROTATED IT HAHAAHAHA

but still.

LOVEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! ARGH IM SO HUNGRY

CHANEL WHY SO EMO T_T!!!!!!!!!

RM10 SHORTS OMG INSTANT LOVE!!!!!

RM20 DRESS OMG INSTANT LOVEx2!!!!!!!!!!!! RM20 ONI OK.

PHOEBE GOT ONE THE SAME AS MINE LOL. NOT TOTALLY THE SAME. HERS IS BLUE ON TOP AND ITS EFFING CUTE ALSO!!!!

~BIMBONEZZ~

lol.

omg who is this faktart tranny wannabe?

jeng jeng stay tuned!!!!!

its 5.27am AND AMZAR GO TO SLEEP OMG DON BE SUCH A MOFO!!!!! LOL

BAI!!!!!!

LOOOOL HAHAHAAAH

2009-06-05T02:11:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

SORRY I AM LITERALLY LAUGHING MY ASS OFF NOW HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

FOR THOSE WHO DONT SEE THE HUMOUR WTF LA I MEAN LOOK AT THE START OF THE VIDEO GO PLAY HOTEL626!!!!!!!!

*CLICK*

WAS SHE TRYING TO COPY MARILYN MONROE HAHAHAHAHAHA

DAMN IT ITS FUNNY OKAY SHE DOESNT DO THAT IN THE GAME LA DOES SHE?!!!?! WTF LA MODELLING HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

OMG LA OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG WTF BREATHE CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN!!!!!!!!!!!!

and im so into horror right now *MAKES RETARDED FACEZ

and ive been online since forever =O yesterday was a FUN DAY OUT WITH THE VI DOOODZ! HAHA. WHO ARE TOTAL NUTCASES HAHAHA OMG. WILL UPDATE!!!!! OMG I JZ REALIZED EVERYDAY SEEMS LIKE A FUN DAY TO ME HAHAHAHAHA OMG.

LIFE MUST BE MADE OF BLACK AND WHITE. NOT JUST WHITE.

TOO MUCH WHITE LATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i gtgo add some black.

CHAO! STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

forever love <3

LOL!

hmm

2009-06-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

im not trying to be unreasonable but. you cannot act on impulse to your feelings. you know? you think you're the only one facing stress. never occured to you that i could be having my personal form of conflicts too? its just that i dont voice out. you think.... you're the only one. you think... life is much easier on me. perhaps it is.

nevertheless.

you have no right.

to throw it all. on. me.

no. fucking. right.

this is why i love nights. its when the world is mine. it's the only time i do not have to put up with lies. hypocrisy. hatred. empty hearts. crashing dreams. and people who run around with eyeliner and slit their wrists and stick spears into their eyes and enjoy the pain.

the only time my thoughts are heard. making my actions more precise. somehow. the things i do at night seem more.. rational. although there is little to be done.

i relive my past. the things ive done. and the people who have wronged me. do they deserve forgiveness? i dont believe in second chances. i am selfish. read this and you think you may know me. what makes you think that? how could you?

even I dont know me.

the quiet... the calm.. the only time i can hear myself breathing.. my thoughts.. so clearly.

allowing me to see things from a clearer perspective.. ; it's the best time to stay awake.

but tonight. everything is hazy. i cant think properly.

my train of thought seems to be heading in the wrong direction. --> STUPIDITY.

THANKS TO THIS FAKTART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol.

Goodnight everyone (:

2009-06-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

hello

can you, dear stranger, play cherry blossom time, by kotaro oshio, perfectly, without a flaw, on the guitar?

you, have my heart x)

sigh!

2009-06-02T02:30:00.000-07:00

today's kelas tambahan was at 8.00am.

i woke up at 8.00am :)

reached at 8.45am :P i tot i was the latest and then at 9am!!!!!!

SYAFIQ RASHIT ARRIVED HAHAAHAHAHAHAA WOW WHAT A SURPRISE PFT

presenting to you...

SYAFIQ RASYID AKA THE GUY WHO RUINED MY LIFE AND I HAVE A FEELING HIS CHILDREN WILL RUIN MY CHILDRENS' LIVES AND IT'LL GO ON FOR QUITE A WHILE AT LEAST 6 GENERATIONS WILL BE RUINED WTF

look at him! pfft! CUCUK KAU! _|_

anyways there's this massive headache i'm having now omg i feel like squeezing something argh lets milk a cow wtf and and anddddddd.... this really evil feeling is eating me up inside. :( its familiar. yet so distant. and its back to haunt me. its literally killing me argh.

but who cares? its just a feeling right? FEELINGZ WONT KEELZ RITEZZZ?

my day has been O_O.. the class ended at 10am :P HAHA! didn't study at all. waste of time. then it was time to chao. waited dam long for one miserable bus. wei sheng was to take the bus with me. YES TIN WEI SHENG I KNOW YOU WON SBS OKAY AND YES YOU ARE THE MASTER OF ALL BASKETBALL MASTERZZ OKAYY?!!?!?!!?!!?

HAHA. BABI. CANNOT STOP BRAGGINGZZZ

after 30 minutes...

A FAKING BUS ARRIVED AND ACTUALLY DROVE PAST US -________-

lol i ran after it but wei sheng was just. standing in the distance. not even trying to run. i was so pissed when the bus drove away then i turned back and shouted at him! that bloody bus was rapid kl. vivi saw me running back and she started laughing like crazy HAHAHA DAMN!!!

after i shouted at him ^______^

TIN WEI SHENG : "CAN YOU PLS USE UR BRAIN?!!?! IF THE RAPID IS HERE. OF COZ THE SJ BUS WILL BE HERE. CUZ!!! THEY WILL BE REBUTING FOR BUSINESS."

he was right lol the sj bus was right behind us *_* and then we got on the bus. and OMG TIN WEI SHENG PAID FOR MY TICKET HAHAHAHAHAHAA. DAMN SCARY. DIRASUK HANTU MAN. SO I PRAISED HIM UNTIL HIS STOP ARRIVED WTFZ.

AND THEN MY NIGHTMARE ARRIVED T____T FKIN JAM. NO NOT PEANUT BUTTER AND JELLY JAM ARGHZ ITS WHERE THE CARS ARE ALL SUMBATTED TOGETHER AND IT FCKS UP TRAFFIC. AND YOUR LIFE. FCKS EVERYTHING UP.

i fell asleep in the bus. and woke up 25 minutes later to find out im still stuck in pudu LOOOOOOL!!!!!!!! and my drool on the glass window but thats a whole new different story.

THE POINT IS. WADAFAK.

so i reached home at..... around...... 11.45am.

walking under the blazing hot sun is not pleasurable!!!!! walking under the blazing hot sun with horny construction workers calling out "MOI!!! HARI INI ADA SEKOLAH KE!?!??!!?!? KENAPA BALIK AWAL SANGAT!?!?!?!!" can really piss a person off.

ARGH SO I REACHED HOME AND FELL ASLEEP ON THE COUCH *_*

woke up. massive headache still there.

TOOK A BATH AND FELL ASLEEP AGAIN ARGHHH

woke up. felt the same head cracking sensation. still. there.

LOL FCK THE WORLD

2009-05-31T08:38:00.000-07:00

SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME OMG SOMETHING IS ABSOLUTELY WRONG WITH ME THIS IS... HORRENDOUSLYFYING WRONG IT MUST BE A BIG FAT BLUNDER IT HAS TO BE

I AM SHAKING AS I TYPE THIS

I CANNOT DO THIS TO MYSELF

NOT AGAIN

NOT EVER

YOU HEAR ME CRYSTAL GAN?

ITS JUST A FEELING AN OBSESSION A TOTALLY IRRELEVANT PIECE OF SHIT

AND IT WILL REMAIN AS THAT

BAI LOL

2009-05-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

i can't believe i just lived through that

i am in so much stress i am actually sweating right now

anyways. i just read a girl's blog and it ANNOYED TEH SHITZ OUT OF MEH. okay not really but really kinda peeved me a little ^_^ but then again. im easily peeved. SHE KEPT GOING "OMG HE'S HIGHER THAN ME!!! actually nooo hee hee i am higher than him hmph!!! he is standing on his toes!!! tats why higher ma =P"

LUL WOMAN. ITS TALLER LA. WHERE GOT I HIGHER THAN YOU SHE HIGHER THAN HIM ONE. SIAO AH.

anyways i really hope my existence.... were of more use to the world.

i wish i could make you happy. yes. you. the person who's raised me all these while without giving up eventhough all i did as a child was bawl every other night and in school and activities include nearly dying nearly dying wtf

thanks for not giving up.

now ill do my part.

but tell me how.

still in last night's pjs its 10.23pm HAHA

2009-05-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

"The things we crave the most , destroy us the quickest ."

SOMEONE GOOGLED VITAGEN OVERDOSE AND GOT TO MY BLOG HAHAHAHA WHYZ?! BEEN POO POOINGZ FIVE TIMEZ A DAY, MATE? ^_^

speaking abt vitagen the newest flavour the honeydew one is love!!! absolute love!!! cinta sejati!!!! yum to the my!!

anyways i am so retarded its scary.

what could be more retarded than waking up at 3pm? i slept so early last night okay!!!! around 2.30am LUL. and now its 9.03pm. and im still in pyjamas aha. LOL. havent bathed and all.

~FEELZ UTTERLY SEXY~

anyways woke up at 3pm and immediately hogged the tv. Atonement was on HBO.

9/10

I LOVED IT IT WAS FCKING SAD. SORRY TO YOU SHALLOW PEOPLE YOU WON'T GET IT. HEEE, HEEE... AS FOR DEEP PEOPLE ( LIKE ME ) IT WILL FCKING MOVEEEEEE YOU FROM DEEP WITHIN T_____T

my heart literally throbbed. passion T___T LOVE T_____T SEXXX T_______T

and then after that i was in the mood for sadness T_T SO...

5. 4067/10 wtf

its rather sad. RATHER touching. but i dont get why everyone is crazy about it.

he doesnt treat her right. only sometimes. he pressures her for SECKZ. and then midway in the story she got rapedzzz. and then she got preggerz bcuz they made lurve in the library. and then the baby got destroyedz. and then he leavezz her for NO reasonzzz. and then she getz paranoidz of lurve. and then she lurvez again. and then she findz out why he really leftz and it touchez her from deepz withinzzzzz. and then she goez back for him.

anyways talking about sad ive been rather down myself. its not my fault i dont have a brain. its not my fault i do not possess ze ability to care about stuff i just dont give two shits about lul does that even make sense!!!!!

i failed two subs lol never before in my life HAHAHAHAHAHA ( im laffing outside but deep insideee i am bleeding so hard there is a hole in my lungs WHY DID YOU PUNCTURE A HOLE IN MY LUNGZ?!?!? )

i nearly bought a bikini that day but my mum said "YOUR TIME HAS NOT COME YET"

anyways bali is beautiful absolutely terrific yum yum

1/5 of my breakfast

not really in the mood for anything except rusting. boooohoooo my life consists of nothing productive all i do is stuff like... watching a fish drown.

lets wash a fish drown. lets watch carmen electra become a nun. lets watch a priest do a nun lol.

LETS WATCH ELTON JOHN MAKIN LURVE TO A WOMAN.

anyways life has been nothing but shit my grades are FCKING HORRENDOUSLYFYING OMGG ITS A SURPRISE MY PARENTS STILL LOVE ME.

OH MY GOD IT JZ OCCURED TO ME I HAVENT TOLD THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i dont blame no one. ive never blamed anyone. because try pointing at someone you'll still have four fingers pointing right back at you!!!!!!

i find it so hard to concentrate in school!!! *EYES BLINK CONTINUOUSLY* why? no idea... i just have this wandering mind. i wonder constantly what to eat for recess. what to pack for lunch tomorrow... if i were on the verge of becoming a zombie... would i let myself become one? or would i kill myself? if i chose to kill myself, would i have the guts to? how would i do it? if i shot myself in the head, would it hurt? is angelina jolie and brad pitt going to last? man, i hope they will... is anyone in the world dying right now? is someone being born? are they killing a chicken somewhere in the world? i bet they are...

MAN!!!! FCKING DISTRESS I TELL YOU!!!!!!!

"CRYSTAL! BERDIRI! APA MAKSUD BLABLABLABALABLA?"

i obviously dont know why bother asking me do i look like i know anything?!!!

anyways i would like to humbly say FUCK YOU TO MY GEOGRAPHY TEACHER =)

oooh and The Notebook just gets more beautiful after every read. noah's love for allie is so beautiful its sickening makes me want to puke with tears in my eyes.. sex part is not horny its so passionate and beautiful makes me feel like touching myself while crying HAHAHAH WTF

but really. i wonder if every love feels like that.

I HOPE NOT. CUZ IT FAKING HURTZZZZZZ

OMG I REALLY HATE OILY HAIR HAHAHA AND MY HAIR FEELS LIKE SO OILY ITS LEAKING i think imma take my infamous one hour bath nowwww =)

tattoo

that day i went to giant with this and everyone was staring i was like WTF? DO I LOOK LIKE A G CUP TODAY?!

then i noticed they were staring at my tattoo like "BLESS THE GIRL. HOPE SHE FINDZ THE LIGHT. AMEN"

-___________-

what could be more beautiful?

YOU! :)

lol awwww

flattered? go click on the adds :p

ILYMTYLMCLC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P

BAH

2009-05-18T05:06:00.000-07:00

“You wear a mask for so long, you forget who you really are"

YESSSSSSH!!!! the plane just landed at 3am today and i went to school at 9am looooooool supposed to wake up in time for school but but but... i dunnu!!!

fak air asia =) honestly!!!! delayed the flight from 8.30pm to 10.40pm GARGH

my brother managed to go to school in time because he was at the computer until school started lol 3 to 6am maplestory wtf

anywaysssssssssssssssssssssssss.

fuck.

i hate stepping back into reality. its like being doused with a pail of icy cold water. its like telling you things can never be all good. imperfections start catching up with you..

i guess a white cloth will not always stay white =/

when the catterpilar thought the world was coming to an end, it turned into a butterfly =)

i will live by that. I WILL. LIVE BY THAT.

despite the fact i am feeling uberly crappy right now. i really want to stay in bali and be blissfully ignorant about everything.. making stupid faces at the camera every single day... and not be worrying about tomorrow... or today... or yesterday...

i dont know. i hate this. all these events... they make me realize im more than imperfect. the number of flaws that i possess.. its disgusting.

UTTERLY REPULSIVE. ITS HORRENDOUSLYFYING.

NOT ONLY AM I INCAPABLE OF THE DAILY THING EVERYONE ELSE IS CAPABLE OF.

I AM RETARDED.

I AM SO FAKING SLOW WHEN IT COMES TO LEARNING STUFF.

THIS IS FUCKING SAD MAN.

SOME PEOPLE WHO WALK INTO YOUR LIFE PERMANENTLY STAIN YOU.

THIS, IS NO LIE. FUCKING FOOTPRINTS

SORRY ABOUT THE VULGARITIES BUT IM FEELING REALLY USELESS RIGHT NOW JUST SO YOU KNOW.

BUT THEN AGAIN.

I FEEL LIKE DIS ALL THE TIME.

FEEL LIKE DIS ALL THE TIME = VULGARITIES ALL THE TIME

THATS RIGHT. THATS ME. CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN.

YEEPEEDEEE DOOO

AND WHY IS EVERYBODY IN LOVE!!!!!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!

"You're no longer my last phone call or text message,
no longer my last kiss.
Yet somehow, you're still the first thing on my mind."

SPONTANEOUSNESS

2009-05-13T03:24:00.001-07:00

HO HO HERE I COME :P

2009-05-12T04:23:00.000-07:00

the power of denial is so strong it now acts as a barrier to the past

i cant go back

jeeez i should stop doing this to myself bcuz now i can't even retrieve one single fragment of memory without doubting it's existence

jeeeeez

but I, can always, look, forward :D

and all i see is a beautiful day :D *SPREADZ ARMZ* OF GEOGRAPHY :D SCIENCE! OH GOSH THE JOYYYY!!! :D AND PENDIDIKAN SIVIK :D

-______________-....

i want to be a smart chiq. i want to be....i want to feel... a bulging brain.... i want... i want to be smart dammit!!!!!

but i know it all boils down to hard work. and the ability to stare at a book and absorb the essencezzz of chickenzzz wtf

and that. i. definetly. do not. possess.

i meant the hardworking part.

oh well...

this is real this is me :D

I AM A NERD WANNABE LA JEEEZ!!!!!!

i shall start menerdifying myself by going to bed early tonight. that explains the miracle of me being online at 7.34pm LOL EVERYONE KNOWS I COME ONLINE AT 12am SHARP!!!!!!

actually i wanted to not come online at all but. lol. LOL. LOOOOOOOL.

now i know how drug addictz feel. actually i kinda look like a drug addict mahself =/ sad.

anyhoooss. laterrrr. ill be zzzing earleh ^___^

i think.

cuz im a nerd argh!!!!!! 1 + 1 = pi wtf

NERD ALERT!!!!!!!!

tuning into : THIS IS REAL THIS IS ME- DEVI LOVATO wtf

What I did had nothing to do with you.

It was about letting myself feel - desire, pain, fear.

Emotions you don't permit.

2009-05-12T04:17:00.000-07:00

do you see what i see?

you're not him

perhaps to you

i am not her

2009-05-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

MY DEAREST MURUKU!!!!!

everything will be alright!! he'll be all fine!! everything will be fine and dandy!!! because God has eyes! or if God doesn't have eyes He'll be able to smell justice lol! and keadilan... and and.... bless the good people of the world...

it all takes time

SAY HI LA IF YOU STILL READ MY BLOG HAHAHA BEEECH AND SAY HI TO NOSY PETUNIA FOR ME? OR WAS IT NOVY KASUMA.

i dunu. oh well. study hard bitch! biology! while we rot here and pmrrr pffft *GAG*

lots of loveeeeee! :D from pb kewerbi and i!

teeeeeeheeeeeeee

SEJARAH SUCKZ T_T

2009-05-12T02:35:00.000-07:00

LOL I AM HONESTLY VERY VERY EXTREMELY SAD RIGHT NOW T________T HOW COULD TIZ HAPPEN?!

i have been slaving... and bersejarah-ing... basically becoming one of the gerakan islah doodz... basically understanding everything about dato onn jaafar.. including what boxers he wearz wtf.. and understanding that jeneral di kerajaan funan yang masyhur is bloody fan shih man and THE BLOODY BAJAUS ARE INTO DIVING SO THEY MENGUTIP HASIL LAUT AND SHTI IS BASICALLY A BUNCH OF NIGGAZ WHO GO AROUND BULLSHITTIN ABOUT HOW THEY WILL HELP KEDAH FIGHT SIAM BUT NEVER DO...BCUZ NAK JAGA HUBUNGAN PERDAGANGAN DENGAN SIAM AND PERAK MENGAMALKAN SISTEM GILIRAN AND ITZ SUPPOSEDZ TO BE SPECIAL!!!!!!!!!

AND PKM IZ BLOODY EVILLLLLLLLLLLLL AND IZ INTO TORTURING PPL AND JAPAN TAK SUKA CINA KERANA CINA TELAH MENOLONG ORANG CINA DI CHINA SEMASA PERANG JEPUN-CHINA WTF

harun aminurrashid wrote tenaga kaumku rayuan bangsamu mempertahankan hak kita and perwira melayu.. -__-

AND DATO BAHAMAM VERY FUNNY LA HAHAHAHAH I LOVE WHEN HIS TIGA PENGIKUT TELAH PERGI MENGUTIP HASIL HUTAN TANPA KEBENARAN AND GOT BUSTED!!!!!!!! OMG SOOoOoOooOOOOO FUNNY PLS

-_____________-......

JEEEEZ.

not even thinking as i type all these factz down.

I HOPE I GOT NONE WRONG LOL HAHA TAT WOULD SO EMBARASSING LOL SHOW OFF TAK JADI HAHAAHAHAA /teehee shy wtf

ANYHOOS T_T

why la.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWW

COULDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

EVERYTHING I READ NOT COME OUT....

T___________________________T

all i have been doing is sejarah so now that its over WHAT shall i do laaa?

JEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

oh.

geography.

U_U.............................

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

2009-05-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

when things go wrong,
when your eyebags droopz and makez you look like an old virgin dwarfzz,
when your brain feelz like jellyzz,
when your lack of sleep getz to you and you snap at everyone while showing them the internationalz sign,
when all you do is stuff that mint thingy in your nose and stare at a bookzz, while hiruping your hingus dengan muka orgasm wtf,
when your geography bookz is drenched from your drool - a product of falling asleep on ze book while studying..wasting the preciouz one hour and you wake up feelingz suicidal,
WHEN YOU SEEM TO HAVE NO TIMEEEEZ,
when you kenot watch boyz over flowerz bcuz there is the examzzz, and you are so rasional boleh berfikir berdasarkan alasan dan bukti yang nyata dan dapat membuat pertimbangan berasaskan pertimbangan yang wajarzzzzzz,
when the FUCKING FORM 2 BAB 8 wont enter your brain,
when you have vitagen overdose and all you do iz poopooz,
when you seem to be addicted to coming online at night and going to bed at 2.00am and waking up three hours later for school..

YOU KNOW YOU STILL HAVE YOUR...

CHANEEEEEEELLLLLLL!!!!!!

:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

okay its 12.34am FAK FAK FAK FAK FAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this post will be interrupted by a pout ^_^ lol

literasi komputer is awfully messed up wtf there is a daughterboard!?!?!?! might as well do a grandmotherboard and sisterboard and fatherboard. and fatherboard can make out with grandmotherboard OMG INCESTZZZZZZSZZZZZZZ

SERIOUZ SHITZZZ HOLYYYZZZZY COWZZ VIRGINZZ FLAMINGOZZ FLYING NOODLEZZZ

MOTHERRRR.. BREASTFEEDING KANGAROO.. CARMEN ELECTRA... IS.. A VIRGIN.... SUPERMAN IZ WEARING.. HIS.. UNDERWEAR.. INSIDE.. AND.. WHEN.. MADAM KHOO.. WALKS.. THE AISLE..

FAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOTHING IS GOING IN MAH BRAINZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

MY LEFT SHOULDER HURTZS SO MUCH I NEED OGAWA I NEED.. U PAPA!!!!!!!!!

fak! seizure 12.45am bye

=D?

2009-05-06T10:25:00.000-07:00

ITS A DISEASE ARGH!!!!!!!

sejarah overloading overdose seizure undercover pressure holy loaded baby in a bottle syndrome wtf?!!?!?!?!

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

OMG I AM SO SUGAR HIGH AND ITS 1.36am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THERES SCHOOL TOMORROW AND THE FIRST PERIOD IS BAHASA INGGERIS THE FIRST FACE I HAVE TO FACE IZ........ THE PUAN USHA DIANE!!!!

i shall attempt to sleep now. bai. and smart people. pls be intimidated by me. :) BCUZ YOU OUGHT TO BE HUNNEH BUNNEHZ

and syafiq HAHAAHAHHA

teacher : "APA FUNGSI SCROTUM?!"
syafiq : "TO PROTECT THE HEART!!!!"

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHH

so i went to him!! OI SYAFIQ!!! APA FUNGSI TESTES?!
syafiq : "TO PRODUCE HAEMOGLOBIN!!!"

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAA

then i went WOI!!!!! APA FUNGSI VAGINA!!!!!
syafiq : "NIKMAT"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAA

AIYIOOOOOoOO WTF OKAY THAT GUY AND HE IS SITTING RIGHT BEHIND ME NOW AND TRUST MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT IZ NOTTTTTT VERY NICEEEEEEEEEEEEE T__________T

BAI BAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

random

2009-05-06T04:31:00.000-07:00

innocence is not something you can obtain easily :P

LOL

bloggin wtih bro's laptop i am so going to get murdered if he is done watching his cartoon network and comes up to see a hot chiq in his room on his laptop!!!!!!! but i am reluctant to turn on my own!!!!! bcuz i am going to study!!!!!

REALLY -_________________-"""""

OMG I JZ NOTICED WE ARE SUCH SPOILED KIDZ =/ we both have laptops o_O

i would like to thank god X) alhamdulilah waramatula eh warah lo amen

today school started with me being pissy. time was passing so slow -_-

i am jz a terrible girl with a big nose sigh

AND I AM SO GOING TO STUDY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok some random picz from bro's com lol ^_^ MY FACE IS DOMINATING EVERY COMPUTER IN THIS HOUSE WEEEKIKIKI THANKIU

wtf

okay lets all study together-gether now!!!!!!!

TODAY IS THE TOMORROW YOU WERE WORRYING ABOUT YESTERDAY

HAWO T_T

2009-05-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

i am currently blogging with..... heavy organs wtf

BCUZ MY STOMACH HURTS AND MY LIVER IS BURNED FOR SLEEPING SO LATE EVERYDAY AND.. AND MY HEART IS REALLLYYY HEAVY BCUZ OF THAT STUPID KOREAN DRAMA JZ NOW PLUS THE STUPID KOREAN SONG IM PLAYING RIGHT NOW ARGH!!!!!! ITS SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY WHY.... WHY DID HE HAD TO HAVE AMNESIA AND FORGET HER!!! WHY!!!!! ARGH!!! THERE IZ ENUF SADNESS IN THE WORLD!!!!!! *throws rotten eggs boooooooooo

actually when people bitch about other people and expect me to bitch too i feel very bad T_____T because i donot hate that particular person but i bitch anyway just to make the person who was bitching about the other person happy T________T

OKAY ANGELA WILL INTERUPT NOW TO SPIT ON MY FACE HAHAHAHAHAHA

anyways. its true T_________T cuz im nice like that T_________T

BUT!!! if i start the bitching!!!! it's okay!!!! ^________^

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

^____________________^

and HAHAHAHHA im so sorreeeeeh but this new girl in my class has this really annoying habit dont believe ask angela and yu han!!! HAHAHAHA. apparently this girl is a go-cart racer or somethinggggg. but she has this really weird/annoying/totally disturbing/gets on every bit of your nerves habit.

SHE STICKS OUT HER TONGUE EVERY FEW MINUTES AND LICKS HER MOUTH WITH THIS REALLY WORRIED EXPRESSION ON HER FACE LIKE HER PERIOD IS COMING AND SHE HAS NO PAD WTF

no. actually. more like.... i dunu. the world is ending?!?!?!? its just very disturbing!!! and plain weird omggggggggggg. she actually looks likeeeeee... she has shit in her brain omggggg. and shes having trouble taking the shit out kerana tak tau nak keluar dari mana HIDUNG KE MULUT!?!?!!?! GARGHHH OMG I AM SO EVILLLLLLL HAHAHA

*slaps self and insafs for 5 seconds*

itz jz so disturbing i actually stare at her and she asks the other people "WHY DOES CRYSTAL ALWAYS STARE AT ME"

"ITS BCUZ YOUR SO PRETTY LAAAAAAAAA JAUHHHHH RAJA PANTAIII ( translate this to english ^_^ )" WTFFFFFF SO DISTURBING OMG PLS TRUST ME I AM CRYSTAL GANNNNNNNNNNNNN

go-cart racer?!?!!!? WTF!!!!! more like hippo rider!!!!!! PENUNGGANG HIPPO!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

*slaps self again and insafs for eternity wtf

SEE.

if i start the bitching. its okay. cuz.

i am perfect =)

OKAY PUKE BYE

2009-05-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

i like pushing myself

i like pain

^________^

that day i bleed and i sucked my own bloood for the first ime omgosh!!!!! SOOOOooOOoOoO COOOLLLL HAHAHAHA CUZ IVE NEVER HAD THE GUTS TO DO IT BEFORE BUT I DID IT!!!!!! SUCKED LIKE... A FEW MILILITERS LAGI.

~COOLIO BABEH~

lol wtf. BUT RIGHT. IT TASTES GOOD ^________^

i go to heaven for the climate, and hell for the companyyyyy oooh yeahhh motherrrr fisherrrssssss

i am satan's spawn

I AM UNBREAKABLE

I AM

I AM.....

........ T___________________T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT THAT KOREAN MOVIE WAS JUST TOO MUCH T___________T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEOPLE OF THE WORLD PLS SEE WHY I CANNOT KAWAD T______T

zoom and take a look at the hand. and it feels most comfortable all bendy and retarded like that looooooooooooooooool baby. if it's straight it's really uncomfy likeeeee i think as uncomfy as a DI** IN A KNOT LOLOLOLOL

WHY AM I RETARDED T________T

OMG YESTERDAY IN PASAR MALAM IT WAS SOOOOOO EMBARASSING T__________T

i was walking happily lala lulu dada ITS A WONDERFUL DAY LALALALALA tiba tiba...... a stomach ache tahap mati dan memberak usus di tengah jalan arrived T_______T

i actually started sweating looooooooooooooool and was so desperate a drain would work T_______T....

so my dad randomly brought me to some shop to use the toilet -_____- and so i bombed in some random shop -____________- THE HUMAN BODY IS A BEEEECH MANNNNNN

moral of the story : DONT... DONT DONT DONT DRINK YAKULT IF YOU'RE HEADED SOMEWHERE AFTER THAT T_____T

goodbye T_____________T

2009-04-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

because isolation is what i choose

....loneliness is creeping in

but in a way

i am complete.

=) =) =) =) X) X) X) X)

yay me

p/s : for k drama fans : CLICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok now you can lick my feet

EVERYTHING IS THERE I SWEAR EVERYTHING IS THERE ARGH SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY I COULD CRY!!!! ARGH!!! IN FACT I AM!!!!!!! T_T

downloading like a crazy downloader girl now goodbye ^_^

2009-04-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes i lie through my lips

most of the time i question my actions

but in the end

does it even matter?

2009-04-25T12:41:00.000-07:00

5.00am

and you think you have issues

2009-04-25T12:16:00.000-07:00

because life is nothing but a funfair

a game

learn how to manipulate it will yaa?

play it your way

life's a MOVIE. don't be one of the cast.

you're not the actor

you're the director.

SO START TAKING CONTROL FOR ONCE

2009-04-25T12:04:00.000-07:00

people can be such hypocrites

proof

KL PAC

2009-04-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

yesterday. 24.4.2009.

OMG ROCKING MAN!!!!!! credits to naim aka david archuleta ( COUGHS ) for the pics :) the live show was aweeeeesomeeeeeeeeeee. dam burning babi awesome how they manage to memorize the lines O_o....

although some parts i was kinda lost lol. MISS TAN AND ALL WERE LOST TOOO HAHAHAHAHA

romeo and juliet was the best!!!! THE KISS FTW!!!!!! ARGHARGHAGRHHAGRH.

sad for the rest. suyin and i got the best view. we could even see their tongues interwine. horr suyin :P

hermia was very pretty :D TO SUYIN ROMEO II WAS VERY HANDSOME HAHAHAHA WHEN WE WERE OUTSIDE WAITING FOR THE BUS SUDDENLY HE PASSED BY AND SHE JZ BURST OUT "I WANT A PICTURE WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!"

he was like "O_O"... okay

the director of the play jeff kevin was with him. i went and harassed jeff kevin instead :D i kept talking abt how unexpected the kiss was at the end lol.

"OH YOU KNOW AT THE START WHERE THE OTHER COUPLE WAS SUPPOSED TO KISS BUT THEIR FACES WENT SIDEWAYS INSTEAD?!!! I WAS EXPECTING THAT AT THE END!!! BUT WHEN THEIR MOUTHS TOUCHED I WAS LIKE OMG ARE THEY KISSING THEY ARE KISSING *@Q^#)@!*^#)@!*^!@!!!!!!"

lol

the malay chiqs behind us were going on and on abt it all being haram. -.- the dresses... THE KISS.. bodoh engkau!!!! life is short. pls be more open. how are you going to make love in the future may i ask? make a hole in your underwear turn off the lights and ask your husband to aim properly?

huh?

and i was the only one wearing tie lol kononnya must formal sangat HAHAHAHA and puan jugdeep says i am very bising she is never taking me out again or something lol............ but deep down i know she loves me.

its 2.38am.

hahahahaha dharma is so umesh in so many ways

peeeekaaa boooooo!!! look whos here to beautify the pictureeeeeee

ooooh. yeh. we gangsta. think you can handle it?

SHUT UP ABT THE ZIP THINGY.

not my fault im poor and i live in a rumah papan in the middle of a roundabout and dont afford a new pinafore..

showing off

until i heard some malay chiq going "POYO"

then i left and then she took over and played yiruma's river flows in you lol POYO!!!! KEPOYOAN!!!! HAHAHAHA _|_ _|_!!!!!

then we got freaking hungry.

i even took a fork and ate the mee from umesh and dharma's plate lol like a beggar. HAHAHA THOSE BARBARIANS!!!!!! the mee was 8 bucks btw -_-

MALIK AND I WERE LIKE AGRHAGHRARHGHAGRAHARGHARHG WE NEED FOOD ARGHAHRHH AND FINALLY

tada sandwich!!!!!!!

5 bucks FML

me being patient while he tries to cut the sandwich so we can share

took forever btw.

DIG IN ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 seconds later

yes i know. this pic. makes it seem like. my ass looks better than my face.

okay. after the showcase ^_^ MET THE CAST OMG ^_^

*POINTS AT DEVINA :D

juliet :P

GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH marcus ; )

hamlet.

cheeky juliet and cheeky cheeky.. weeky... very good actor dood. LUPA NAMA ARGH

the bubbly bubbly juliet

:D

the group

failed jump shot lol.

BODOH AH NAIM HMMPH TAK TAU SNAP WHEN ITS TIME :P HAHAHAHAHA. i kept saying omg lets jump and take a pic!!!!! they looked at me like O_O....

LOL. TAK PERNAH DENGAR JUMP SHOT?!?!!?!!?!

they joined anyway. and suyin managed to snap in the air!!!!! HMMPH!!!

with jeff kevin and romeo who is REALLY VERY GOOD LOOKING JZ THAT NOT PHOTOGENIC ARGH!!!!!!!

oh and

will update more when i feel like it.

for now, i just want to read jiwang quotes and listen to jiwang stuff. while resisting this overwhelming need to eat!

bodoh! diet!!! BODOH!!!! bye.

2009-04-20T04:39:00.000-07:00

i'm alive.

don't you sometimes question the existence of..

truth.

&

sincerity?

promises made between people who swear upon it but as time pass... the urge to hold on just fade away... and soon everything just becomes nothing. and the people will forget. what started out as something valuable ends up as nothing. and when people forget, it means they dont care anymore..

and im no exception.

its funny how these random emotional changes can effect you so much and pull you deeeepppppp downnnnn and make you feel all rock bottom. causing you to reflect on your life and and... notice how important, really.. the things you thought were insignificant..

and im on a diet. living on grapes.

anyways. i've never thought about how much my life sucked. i've never went "omggg i hate my life my life sucks I HATE MY LIFE" lol wtf i think im actually an opstimistic person.

in a way.

i think.

perhaps.

maybe.

anyways!!! man!!!! sometimes i reflect on my past and realize that i've been a dickhead in most of the situations...

it's time for a change.

i think.

maybe.

perhaps.

FCK MANNNNNNNNN NO MOOD TO STUDY AT ALLLLLLLL

AND TODAYS EXAM WAS FUCKED EVENTHOUGH I SLEPT AT 4AM AND WOKE UP AT 5AM FOR SCHOOL MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN LIKE WHAT IS THISSSSSSS SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

i am freaky and disturbed.

with eyebags that are close to reaching my chin

bah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

bloody had lots of coffeeeeee

the intention is to keep these freaking eyelids open

planning to burn the freaking midnight oil

till

i

am

infected

with

sejarah overdose seizure overload syndrome

consider this a suicide note

goodbye

define awesome

2009-04-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

:D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like an open book

2009-04-17T10:26:00.000-07:00

Isn’t it amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside,

&& you can walk around and nobody has any idea

OMG IGNORE THE EMO POSTS SERIOUSLY HAHA. i'm okay. fine and dandy. breathing through my noseee now no more ass breathing yay lets boogie ze anal!!! WTF

OKAY OKAY ENUF NONSENSE ARGH SLAPS SELF*

anyways.

..i've just been thinking alot. and snapping like crazy.

i'm a crocodile. with pms.

i think i've set rather high expectations for myself. when i fully know my limits? maybe. maybe not. but maybe i'm not even trying? and expecting the best out of zero effort?

maybe the world ain't no sphere? but a freaking parallelogram?

maybe milk ain't no milk? but calcium sulphurate quadricle testicle sulphur liquid WTF?!?!

i just think life is very amazing. i wonder if there is an afterlife. on earth? as the invinsible? HUHU SO MYSTERIOUS LURKING IN THE CORNERS OH WAIT DONT EVEN HAVE TO LURK FOR THE INVINSIBILITY IS ALL WE NEED HUHUHU KIKIKI WAWAWA

i stared into the eyes of the ginomous fish my dad bought from the market ( APPARENTLY WHEN HE BOUGHT IT IT WAS STILL ALIVE WTFZOMG WHAT IS THIS SHIT SO SAD!!!!! ) so yah. i stared at it... and cried WTF i swear something is wrong with me.

so sad. everything is so sad. nature is so sad. the fact that something must always eat something is so sad. the fact that hearts break is so sad. the fact that your ass will get wrinkly and your boobs will sag is so sad.

everything is so sad.

SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SADDEST THING IS IT ACTUALLY TASTED GOOD T_T ( WHY DID I EAT IT WTF )

it's eyes.... they indicated..a form of.. life? no no.. death more like it. but still. it reminded me that it had lived a life before it ended up in my fridge. a life. until it fell for the whole worm on hook thing. WERE YOU THAT HUNGRY, FISH?!

maybe the fish had a family. maybe it had a lover. but now, you just have to let it all go, fish..

i just hope you're in a better place now, fish. :)

MAN! the whole fish thing was devastating enough. just... think about chicken eggs... the amounts they come in.. AMOUNT. not NUMBER. you can't freaking count..

and cows.. they actually cry when they're about to be slaughtered you know that? ARE YOU AWARE OF THAT?!!! ESP THE SATURDAY PASAR MALAM DOOD IN TAMAN BUKIT ANGGERIK WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM HANGING THE COW'S HEAD EVERY CHANCE YOU GET!?!?!?!!?!?! ON THE THINGY!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!! MAN!!!!

and to the countries who SLAUGHTER DOGS SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU MAD PIECES OF USELESS SHIT WHY DONT YOU JUST EAT ONE ANOTHER YOU DONT DESERVE TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!

burn in hell rot rot rot rot rot rot eat one another and bleed die die die

*THIS POST WILL BE INTERRUPTED BY A COMMERCIAL OF GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE STAY SEATED DONT GO ANYWHERE!!!!!*

*END. stop being turned on. BACK TO THE SHOWW!!! wtf

it's 2.01am.

and i'm just amazed at how you can still look at me.

but in many ways i want to thank you. because of you, i am standing tall, head up high, feeling the light radiating from the very core of my being.. the light i've been searching for.. my very own completion. ME!

IVE FOUND ME!!!!

holy!!!!!!!!!!! *_____________________*

okay maybe 1/3 of me but still

i love taking the bus home alone

i can loiter around my neighbourhood for like...an hour. just walking around feeling the breeze blowing against my face..and just.. thinking.. you know. hiruping the beautiful air that nature has to offer. the beautiful air that is still beautiful must be hiruped because in 20 years time something tells me it aint gonna be as prettay

but yeah. the same old problem. if i go home alone i tend to wander around without even *ME* noticing HAHAHAHAHAA I AM SO WEIRD. but yah. true. when i reach home my wallet never fails to amaze me ^_^ ALWAYS EMPTY NO MATTER HOW MUCH I BRING OMGGGGGGG

and i spend money without *ME* noticing OMG YAH I AM SO ABSENT MINDED HARRRRRHARRR

anyways........................ it's 2.11AM and i have to get up at 11am tomorrow aiyoooooo so early sob sob stupid SBU IU DAYYYYYY ( YAYYYYYYYYYYY i get to 'socialize' tomorrow HEHE)

i dont flirt! i 'socialize' :P :P :P :P :P

okay the smileys jz deceived my pure intentions where did you come from smileys

i've changed. i'm indestructable. i'm gonna do the destroying now :)

SO FUCKING ANNOYING LAH YOU

AND YOU

AND YOU

AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND

AND HIS BOYFRIEND

AND ESP YOU LAAAAA

FUCK YOU ALL

byebye!

i'm in this mood where

2009-04-17T09:53:00.000-07:00

everything seems like rubbish.

thrash.. insignificant bits and pieces.. lingering in my thoughts.. hanging around me.. feeding on my anger .. throwing me off guard..

does the word vulnerable ring a bell?

everybody just seems to be at fault

flaws overshadowing every good trait

creating an overpowering need

a need so forceful it's taking control

just....

vanquish my fears won't you?

take away these diabolical thoughts

sometimes i wish i could look at myself from your eyes

maybe. just maybe.

the girl i see in the mirror

..is far from what you see.

i have been

2009-04-14T04:22:00.000-07:00

home all day.

woke up at 2am with nose stuck to the extreme extreme extreme-ness ARGH! hingus all over my pillow so i blowed my nose until....... 5am.

argh. i was so desperate arghhhhh i had to breathe from my ass wtf

but as we know that's impossible so i was all HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BREATHE WITH NO AIR NO AIR NO AIR NO AIR NO AIR

omg i seriously don't understand what i type here and the poem recitation thang is tomorrow -_-

do i have to cry at the sad parts? laugh at the happy parts?
do i have to do any hand gestures as i recite the poem?
do i have to glare at the audience at the angry parts?
do i have to masturbate at the horny parts HAHAHAAHAHA

DO I?

man! and puan usha diane is like "I'M PUTTING ALOT OF HOPE ON YOU!"

oh did i mention abt me WINNING THE PUBLIC SPEAKING COMPETITION LOL. CHAMPION HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAA. i know. wtf.

i dunu where i put the prize money -_-

migrane at it's worst now. i feel like puking on somebody's face.

i just noticed MY FRIEND'S PARENTS READ MY BLOG.

hello aunty and uncle!!!! er. although i may seem like i curse alot!! actually i dont!!! serious!!! actually... i am just succumbing to peer pressure!!! bcuz "COOL" people curse!!! and im just trying to be one of them!! i .. er.. dont curse one!!!!! and dont worry!!! your kids are.. er.. in safe hands being friends with me!!!!!

( WTF )

and time flies.

spot the eyes and win a free vibrator WTF

i should stop talking nonsense O_O...

and he's mine angela!

BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye.

murukuness!

2009-04-14T04:00:00.000-07:00

crystaL* IS SO DAVID ARCHULETA-ED!!!!!! says:
eh lets study in uk together <3
=D naeveeeeeena says:
HAHAHAHAHA
=D naeveeeeeena says:
OMG! YEA!!
crystaL* IS SO DAVID ARCHULETA-ED!!!!!!! says:
itll be damn nice
crystaL* IS SO DAVID ARCHULETA-ED!!!!!!! says:
ARGH!! SO FCKIN NICE!!
=D naeveeeeeena says:
I KNOW
=D naeveeeeeena says:
WE CAN LOSE OUR VIRGINITY TO GETHER!!!
=D naeveeeeeena says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
crystaL* IS SO DAVID ARCHULETA-ED!!!!!!! says: HAHAAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAA
crystaL* IS SO DAVID ARCHULETA-ED!!!!!!! says:
TO THE SAME GUY ON THE SAME BED AT THE SAME TIME!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA
=D naeveeeeeena says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and this is why we're friends.

I MISS YOUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHE

i have been

2009-04-13T09:08:00.001-07:00

isolating myself.

until today.

i felt very far away-nickelback

until today.

i have retarded friends from every corner of this stupid globe.

WHY. WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!

i burst into tears at the thought of the puppies i gave away... IT WAS SO SUDDEN SO SAD TOO FAST TOO FURIOUS T_T ITS SO SAD T_T ITS JUST SO SAD I SWEAR!!!!!!! MUMMY WILL FIND YOU GUYS BACK ONE DAY.. COLLECT YOUR KIDS... IF IM TOO LATE.. ILL REUNITE THE FAMILY T_T............

today i looked into the mirror and.................

i dunu what to say.

what is up with my existence? what have i contributed to the world?!?!?!?!!?!?

ARGH!!!!

and omg dont you think i look like a pornstar HAHAHAHAHA WTF

and. DONT YOU THINK PUAN LATIFAH LOOKS LIKE...

no?

i like this pic

i like this mirror

i like this girl ^_^

signing off at 12.10am,

STATUS :- DAVID ARCHULETA-ED

^_^

2009-04-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

TATIANA THE WALRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tell me. she looks like a walrus right! RIGHT!?!?

RIGHT!!?!!? ^_^

or issit me.

oh shit.

its just me right?..........

O_O..........................................

life's brief candle

2009-04-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

time.

is slowly.

but.

surely.

seeping through my fingers.

and here i am, as archuleta-ed as ever.

in a daze.

like poison in my veins.

and there would never be an antidote.

EVERRRRRRRRRRR

okay i shall stop archuleta-ing TEEHEE!!!! you people must be dead annoyed TEEHEEE BUT DO I CARE?!!! HUH!!! DO I CARE!!!!! NO I DONT!!!!!!

for i am mrs archuleta.

screw the indian girl who went all "ARCHULETA I WANT TO HAVE UR BABIES!!!!!!" yesterday. no you cant have his babies for.... its me who'll have them!!! IT IS I!! THOU SHALT GET LOST AND GET 50 CENT TO DO SOMETHING WITH UR OVARIES INSTEAD!!!! WTF

anyways. yeah. time...

every minute slipping away.. every second.... means there is no turning back. like the time i'm using to type this shit. will forever be... GONE.

GONE!!!!! GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIGNIFYING NOTHING. argh. shakespeare!!!!! life is a piece of shit!!!!!!

and one minute just passed.

the fact that i procrastinate. and sit here and stare at this screen. while time past like urine escaping the urethra WTF

it irks me. IT IRKS ME THAT I AM LIKE THIS!!!!!!!! WHY AM I NOT SOME NERD ( LIKE YONG YU HAN HEEHEHEHEE ) WHO... DOES A LIST OF WHAT SHE MUST DO AND COMPLETES THEM?!!!?!?!!?!?! LIKE?!?!?! A THOUSAND YEARS BEFORE ITS DUE?!!?!?!

CRYSTAL GAN!!! pls wake up and do ur work pls pls pls pls pls pls pls... i beg you crystal gan.. T______T *BIG WET EYES

argh the begging not working i shall threaten crystal gan now DO YOUR WORK CRYSTAL GAN BEFORE I CUT OFF YOUR OVARIES ARGHA RGAHRGAHGRAHGARRA!!!!!

and (?!!?!!?!) it's like a party down there. ruins the whole homework atmosphere. why is the whole family here together with my cousin's kid and little baby with miniature features that somehow when jumbled up together makes her look like a blur walrus ^_^

BUT A VERY VERY VERY VERY AWFULLY CUTE BLUR WALRUS ^_^

and her name's megan wtf. she looks more like a TATIANA. somehow. TATIANA THE WALRUS WTF

and my cousin's doing her assignment downstairs college life seems fcked up T_T...

and whats with the chicken rice master doing downstairs...

....oh.

they're all learning how to use a fcking pot wtf SOME AMWAY SPECIAL POT SHITS. 6 MINUTES FOR CHICKEN RICE 20 MINUTES FOR HOKKIEN MEE AND SO MUCH MORE SHIT ITS LIKE A WONDER POT WTF CAN EVEN USE TO BOIL SOUP WTF

but theres some method. so they're learning it. gah.

oh its not just the pot. they're learning how to use an oven also lol water oven CAN BAKE CAKE AND MAKE LONG BEANS ONE WTF JZ BY PRESSING BUTTONS WTF

and whats up with me caring too much abt the things that matter to ME and not giving a shit abt the stuff that are REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT but that is nothing of my interest?

man....

i feel...........so.....

ARCHULETA-ED!!!!

HAHAAHAHAHAA still.

hope its infectious NGEHEHEHE we shud all love him but jz keep in mind he's mine NGEHEHE HEAD TO TOE MIND TO SOUL XD XD XD

and my dad just told me "I AM YOUR GOD"

lol.

and how the fuck do you recite poems?!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!!?!?!!

and how do you stop a person from cursing so much..... how..... esp a person like me... im not even sure im a person...... a human being.....

oh well.

i think im the next shakespeare.

SIGNIFYING NOTHING................

<3

2009-04-12T03:36:00.001-07:00

worth the wait,
worth everything :)

EXCUSE ME FOR BURSTING INTO TEARS AT THE SIGHT OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON ON EARTH

pffft

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :)

cant get over it slap me slap me somebody

on second thought.

DONT :)

DIES

2009-04-10T09:17:00.000-07:00

;D!

WHEEEE NESSS!!!

2009-04-09T05:16:00.000-07:00

"If you don't like how things are, change it! You're not a tree."

omg do you know that life is a beautiful placeeeeeeeeeee a really really beautiful place?!?!?!!

crystal gan and pimple on her nose ( amy ) saying hi :)

BRITNEY SPEARS!!! IF YOU SEEK AMY!!!! ITS ON MAH NOSE!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA OMG I AM SO FUNNY AHAHAAHHAAHAHAA wtf

fckin ginomous man you amy. DIE AMY DIE!!! STUPID PIMPLE!!! HMMPH!!!!

anyways i haf been staying back almost everyyyyydayyy. okay. wait. error. more like.. EVERYDAY :) it's either this. or that. or up. or down. or left. or right up down diagonal square triangle parallelogram right angle chlamydomonas WTF

to sum it all up, i have been a busy little girl =D ( proud of myself, unlike those fcktarts who don't stay back at all, go home and rot only. ROT LA!!!! rot till fungus grows all over your armpits WTF )

i've been taking public transport home all by myself AHAHAHAAA shhh if my parents know they'll go hysterical.

but i better stop doing that man. its like... i somehow... spend alot of money when im on my way home alone. like walk walk walk walk.... look around... wave at dogs... chase squirrels... then like... when i go home its like ehh?!!! how come one hand sushi one hand dvd one?!?!?!!! and got kuih muih in my bag one?!?!?!?!!

then i check wallet.

0.75 cents.

LOLLLLLLLLL I LIKE WANDERING AROUND AIMLESSLYYYYYYYY

i made friends with dvd girl from dvd store near my house apparently i didn't even know it was there before!!!!!! SO NOW WE'RE FRIENDS!!!!! WHEE!!!!! THE DVD WAS RM16.90 but i got it for RM16!!!!!!!!!! OMGOSHINESS!!!! SAVE 90 CENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANKIUU NEWFOUND FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (^_^)VV!!

oh yah monday i took bus with miru. in the bus... there was this malay dood who kept looking at me... he looked really familiar...

suddenly he was like "CRYSTAL?"

WAH!!!!!!!!! OMGOSHINESS!!!!!!!! ITS MUHAIMIN FROM MY PAST!!!! SKTS!!!!

i was sitting on the very high seat nehh you know the rapid kl one. he was standing right in front of me.

i was like "MUHAIMIN?!?!!?!"

muhaimin, crystal

EH YOU DAH GEMUK WEI!!!!!!
NAK MATI AH!!! EH YOU MASIH PENDEK WEI!!!!!!!!! SEKOLAH MANA?
COCHRAINE!!! EH BETUL DAH GEMUK WEI DULU KURUS MACAM KAYU. YOU SEKOLAH MANA? stayback untuk apa?
DIAM!!! YOU PENDEK!!!! SAB!!!!!! YOU BELAJAR OK TAK??!! SAYA KH 48!!! SEBAB ITU STAYBACK UNTUK TUISYEN!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAH KH SENANG LA!!!! saya belajar ok kut... SAYA MATH 44!!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH SAYA 96!!!!!!!

it went on and on like tat wtf

then at the end we kept laughing i was going to get off the bus with miru dy... leisure mall WTF. i wanted sushi. ENDED UP WIT SUSHI AND MCFLURRY LOL. THANKS MIRU FOR TEMANING!!!

suddenly i realized....

EH MUKA YOU MACAM KODOMO LION WEI!!!!

then we HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA-ed until everyone in the bus was like WTF

then i got up from my seat..

and guess what.

muhaimin is taller than me WTFFF

EH I LEBIH TINGGI LA!!!!! HAHHAAHAAHAHA DULU YOU TINGGI DAN KURUS SEKARANG GEMUK DAN PENDEK WEI!!!!!!!

i think i will keeeeeeel him the next time i see him.

but life is so beautiful laa!!!

i feel so hee hee right now. dont get this feeling?

LISTEN TO... LENKA- THE SHOW :)

DONT HATE ME CUZ IM BEAUTIFUL!!!! AHAHAHAHAHA

and today creative writing SUCKED BIG TIME MAN.

title was : STRANGER AT THE DOOR.

i said the stranger at MY DOOR WAS SOME LIVING DEAD HAHAHAHA RIPPING MY DOG APART WTF!!!!!!!!!! then right. i was running running running. there was no one around @_@ i was like omg how comeeeee?!?!?!! then!!!!! i saw my parents. but.. i saw this diabolical thing radiating from their eyes la. then they came towards me and then bit the shit out of me. then i felt like my train of thought was fading away.

AND THEN I WAS ONE OF THE LIVING DEAD.

the fcking end.

save the applause pls :)

ARGH! SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SORRY PUAN USHA DIANE I HAVE FAILED TO SERVE YOU PROPERLY TAKE MY HEAD PLS!!!!!!!! YOU ARE ALLOWEDDD TO BURNN MY HUMBLE ABODE!!!!! BUT PLS!!!!! SPARE MY PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!

but life is still so beautiful laaaa radiating full blast pulchritude :D

but i wish amy would pop

AND OMG!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! EVERYTHING IS SO OMG-DING!!!!!!!!!

hot bod!!!!!! AARGH!!!!!

ITS 9.00PM AND I HAVENT SHOWERED EAT ETC STILL SMELL LIKE UREA AND MINERAL SALTS!!!!!!!!!!

HAF A GOOD NIGHT HOMO SAPIENS OF ZE WORLD!!!!!!

"Here is a test to find out whether your mission on Earth is finished: If you're alive, it isn't"

i got my eyes on you :D
DUP DUPDUPDUPDUPDUP

ARCHIELETA!!!!!

2009-04-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG SO ITS NOT SBU.

I HEARD ONE OF THE SCHOOLS HE MAY BE GOING TO ARE SMK TMN CONNAUGHT WTF.

IS THERE A CHANCE TO AMINUDDIN BAKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!! if only our school's name weren't so lame. at least like smk seri bintang utara if you like convert it into english it sounds EFFING COOL ^_^ --> southern star high school. ( SEE )

BUT CAN YOU CHANGE SMK AMINUDDIN BAKI TO SOUND ENGLISHY AND EFFING COOL?!!?!?!

aminuddin baki high school WTF

it's like you give david archuleta a list of schools to choose.. there are...

a. southern star high schoool
b. northern star high school
c. sunway international school
d. connaught high school
e. tsun jin high school
f. aminuddin baki high school WTF

IF I WERE HIM, I WOULDNT CHOOSE MY SCHOOL WTF. THIS IS SO SAKIT JIWA TAHAP TERGOLEK PLS.

WHY DID THE FOUNDER OF MY SCHOOL HAD TO HAVE SUCH A LAME NAME?!!?!?!?!!? ARGH!!!!! NO OFFENSE!!!!!! OFFENSE TAKEN!!! ARGH!!!!!!

anywayssss sorry for the wrong information abt the school thingy HEHEHE ESPECIALLY TO SARAH LEE!!! ( whos in italy anyway hehehe wrong timing muchhh =p )

but im not sure. it still could be sbu. ARGH!!!!!

trying hard for the tickets nowwwwww. so hard i would like to hingus all over angela's face. ( WAH FREE FACIAL HAHAHA ) oh dear god, can you hear me? i need to see david archuleta this saturday... *puts on eyeliner and takes knife to slit wrists blood as offering wtf*

like i say, if i dont see him i will bleeedddd to death....through.... my... scalp.... and.... fingertips... and my urethra would burst into a few million pieces wtf

i was havin a conversation with angela.

angela, crystal

OMG DAVID ARCHULETA IS SO NOT GOING BACK A VIRGIN <3
yah... he'll go back a rape victim.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITCH!!!!! YOURE JZ JEALOUS CUZ OBVIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'LL LOVE ME ARAHRAGAHAHAHAHHHAAHAHGDHARAHHHH

a happy rape victim more like it HAHAHAH!!!!!

OMG DAVID ARCHULETA ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! i jz love him.

how can you not love the guy!!!!!

HOW?!!?!?!?!!?!!

TO PEOPLE WHO DO NOT LOVE HIM, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!!?!?! DONT HATE HIM CUZ HE'S BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!

LOOK INTO THE MIRROR AND HATE THAT INSTEAD!!!!!!!!!!!

DAVID ARCHULETA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON EARTH ARGHARGHARGHAGARHAGHRG BY BY BY BY BY BY BY BY BY....... JZ... ARGH!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! MINDFCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAVID ARCHULETA~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the world is a stage, but the play is badly cast

2009-04-07T04:43:00.000-07:00

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but everyone can start today and make a new ending"

so life is fine i think.. i dunu why i can NEVER get enough sleep and i realize many sabians dont get enuf sleep too O_O... BUT THE WORST WOULD BE AMZAR AKA MR PINKO THE JIWANG. bloody guy. makes me stay up every night zzzzz "JOIN THE NIGHTSHIFT!!!" haha. idiot. bloody siao like lembu flying zzzz. today i am going to try TO SLEEP 8 HOURS :) i cant afford to sleep in class anymore... slept during perhimpunan WHILE STANDING...and just being asleep while i do everything wtf.

i just got back from jogging omg what is my problem zzzzzz jog until dislocate left leg bone or something HAHAHAAHA its like if i dont sweat a day i feel like all these urea and mineral salts are getting too much so i have to get them out.

but not thru urinating!!!!!

THROUGH SEXY SWEAT.

omg my feet stink LIKE SERIOUS STINK will you marry me

omg my dad has been a health conscious freak lately he's beeen into coloured rice. like red and brown rice apparently it's MUCH HEALTHIER.

the red is okay. kinda cute. tastes the same.

BUT THE BROWN ONE IS ALL STICKISH AND.... IT LOOKS LIKE MACAM BARU DISIMBAH AIR NAJIS.

so how omg can i feed them to my dogs?!!?!!

but i dont think even they deserve it.

i think i have a temper disorder. when i burst i think i scare myself. MORAL WITCH BETTER WATCH OUT AAHHAAAHAA SHHHHH

yesterday my dad wanted to use my laptop i was like okay wait for me to sign out of msn blablablbla it was 1am btw so we were all cranky. i told him not to open the pictures and the documents and all...

so i went and brush my teeth and came out and saw that the documents and pics were all opened wtf so naturally i went "WHY YOU OPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

he claimed he accidentelly opened it when he was trying to open the pendrive so being all cranky i went to him and opened the pendrive and went all "CLICK HERE LA!!!!!!!!!"

then my dad went :

"YOU THINK I WANT TO OPEN YOUR DOCUMENTS AND ALL ISIT?!?!! I KNOW LA YOU SAVED PORN AND WATCH DAY AND NIGHT."

wah. wtf. crystal gan went :

"PORN?!!?!?!?! PORN IS IN YOUR DAMN COMPUTER LA PORN!!!!!!!"

LOL RIGHT!!!!!!!!! so naturally.. i got scolded. kena screamed "ANAK DERHAKA!!!! WANT MONEY THEN COME TO ME LA?!!?!?" lol. so i apologized reluctantly and when my head hit the pillows its like zzzzzz dreamland already so lalalalaa lol

AND I DONT WATCH PORN OKAY. thats why i was mad. what so interesting about watching a stick enter a hole? continuously?

AND WHAT THE FUCK?!!?!?!!?!?!?! I HEARD DAVID ARCHULETA IS GOING TO SBU!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!? WHAT!?!?!?! THE!?!?!?!?!!? FUCKITY!?!?!!?!?!! FUCK!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!?!!

ARGH. DAMN SIAO EMO. CANT GET THE TICKETS SO FAR. THE CONCERT'LL BE IN SUNWAY. my mum could've gotten them but EVERYTHING IS CONTROLLED BY SONY..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!! ILL BLEED FOR YOU ARCHIELETA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think im shifting school. ARGH!!!!!!

my hair is so long now signifying how much time has past or isit just my super hairgrowth

anyways. im growing up. YAY!!!!!!!! 3 years till im legal HAAHAA

AND HOUSE KISSED CUDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg *O*

and you wanna know something shocking?

I DONT REALLY FANCY GUYS ANYMORE.

HELLO MIRACLE HAPPENING PLS

im not even kidding omg

"HEY! NICE LEGS! WHAT TIME DO THEY OPEN? :)"

aha! byebye!!! miss ya wanna kiss ya!!! lol

2009-04-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

god, i've been thinking so much....

i need to turn into a woman NOW.

spread my wings

get an apartment

get the perfect job

trample all over the staff FOR I WILL BE BOSS

HAVE GOOD SEX HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAA!!!!

im serious.

mummy i want to be 20

KO JI MA!

2009-04-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

my title means LIES in KOREAN.

LIES!!!!!!!!!!! KOJIMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

people are being fed with lies every single day. EVERY SINGLE MOTHERING FALLOPIAN TUBING DAY WTF.

the best way is not to trust every single person around you. ( including ur mother. and father. and brother. and even the person you see in the mirror )

I JZ GOT ON THE WEIGHING MACHINE AND OMG I WILL SHOOT A SQUIRREL PLS ( no i donot mean that )

conclusion : i am as fat as a whale ( still )

OMG MAN. FINE. SINCE JOGGING BERAPA RATUS KM EVERYDAY IS NOT WORKING. I WILL.. I WILL... START STUFFING MY FINGER INTO MY THROAT BOOHOOOHOO IM BULIMIC I NEED HELP.

not.

FITNESS FIRST PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyone up for it?

i will run on the bloody treadmill until it says "CONGRATULATIONS YOU HAVE JZ RAN TO SOUTH AFRICA ^_^"

omg i am so lame pls. shoot me. shoot me. just. shoot me.

omg it's been awhile since i went crazy. okeh maybe not. HAHA. i feel like killin some lung cells HAHAHAA SHISHAAAAA OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I WANT TO SHISHA I AM SO HIGHHHHH WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

sometimes people can be so mean. INCLUDING ME. sometimes i want to shoot myself.. anyways, mean people and the shit stuff they do... don't really get to me anymore. i used to like.. smile in fear and abide to whatever the big fat meanies want me to do... i'll jz pretend like it doesn't matter.. like.. LALALAALA...the stuff you say does not hurt me... LALALALA...

omg i was such a big fat coward *STOMPS*

but no longer. cuz now. you'll get the most wtf look from me.

and piercing, hurting words that will make you bleed in the heart.

SUN OF A BEACH. FUCKING DONT MESS CAN?!!!!

anyways.

happiness and sadness ; it plays a part in everyones' lifes. even beggars, have experienced happiness. REALLY!!! like.. maybe some beggar dood's begging income on thursday was much much higher than wednesday's?! maybe beggar dood and beggar woman in same neighbourhood fell in love got married and had beggar kids and formed a bigger begging team thus earning more begging income? its a form of happiness, no? but of course, sadness... plays a bigger role in their lifes LOL IM SO SORRY FOR YOU

amazing how certain people enter your life for just a brief moment, and disappear completely after that. no matter how important they have been, or how..insignificant their existence was to your life.. it's still scary. while some stay.. but really. amazing how it's all the same for everyone. but in many ways, so completely different. you can be the one to control who stays, and who gets lost. really, put in some effort.

OMG I THINK IM GOING TO BE A VERY VERY VERY VERY ANNOYING MOTHER

i have been waking up late two days in a role to school LOLLL AAHAHAHA first day of waking up late- wore different shoes to school. second day- wore different socks.

i am so amazing.

i still have so much to talk about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but. there goes the whole time thing. GARGH. goodbye.

"I'm a menace to myself, dancing this close to heartbreak."

HAPPIEST KID ALIVE

2009-04-02T04:26:00.000-07:00

MAKE A BETTER PLACE FOR YOU AND FOR ME!!!!!!!!!

*SPREADS ARMS*

ok hi hi hi hi HAHAHAHA.

I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR NOT UPDATING!!!!!!!! bcuz seriously. who's blog is this again?

CRYSTAL GAN AI WEN.

and she will blog whenever she likes HEEEEE HEEE HEEE *annoying peace sign

anyways. have been really REALLY busy... you know. the usual. trying to stay alive in this topsy turvy world..

just came back from hardcore jogging with the dogs.. and chasing neighbourhood squirrels omg i had no idea my neighbourhood had like so many squirrels can i hear SQUIRREL OVERLOAD?! and.. and... panting nonstop on the road... and witnessing two scary looking doods stealing a sofa from the abandoned house.

i think they were stealing!!!!! omg. but what could i do. im just a little girl in a little world wtf.

sweating like sial weeiiii i swear my ass sweated also anyways prove i really did jogged ok!!!!

you mess with me, you mess with...... nacho libreeeeeee with extra keropok wtf

i have nice teeth im going to complain cuz i want to wear braces lol braces are HOT

seriously.

tak cukup tidur + tak cukup oxygen = EYEBAGS YANG LEBIH BESAR DARI EYES.

nama aku siti supranah hee hee hee ya allah

arabian spy

i'm running 800m on sports day. i know. wtf. HAHA.

yes the girl crawling on the track would be me :D

I AM GOING TO SAY GLORY!!!!!! TO KWONG PEI YIN NOW. HAHAHAHAHA.

LAKSAMANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sau pei pls other teams i will crawl with pride

i want a husband who can cook!!!!!!!

he will cook in the nude for me!!!!! ( that is so sexy ) every morning he will cook a super duper breakfast for me HAHAHA OMELLETTES IS THAT HOW YOU SPELL IT HAHAHAHA THE BIG BIG EGG THINGYYYY ^_^ but he better put on underwear or his unnessacary OMG MY SPELLING IS SO BAD HAHAHAHA *COVERS FACE* hair would fall into my breakfast WTF WTF WTF WTFWTWFWTFWTFWTF lol.

are you, afraid of unrequited love?

omg major backache man.

but its sexy in a way. like.. muscle aches are so sexy man. i have been cutting myself unintentionally like... i dunu man. ACCIDENTS LAH OKAY I AM NOT SADISTIC. like suddenly blood on t shirt and all then i tiba tiba check finger BLOOD OVERLOAD WTF. and the second blood overload would be on my leg. like tiba tibaness man. so hardcore. i am so cool.

i missed sri garden's iu ARGH. BLOODY BABI ON THE MOUNTAIN ARGH WTF. i was in kampung. omg i have a story man. so.. in melaka... to keep my mind of the iu.. my dad bro and i went for basketball at some random court. we were the only onees theree. so i would run a huge lap and go to the middle and shoot a few hoops AND I SUCK BTW IM SO RETARDED WHEN IT COMES TO B BALL ARGH!!!!!

at least i can play the piano. (??????????????? okay i dont get myself )

so anyways!!!!!!!!!!! suddenly this dood shamelessly came out of nowhere. and took our ball from the floor.. and started playing lol. and started mumbling in dunu what shit language. we assumed he was from thailand WTF. but really. it was so weird. so he was shoootingg hoops with my brother while my dad and i looked on and went "WOW. THIS GUY'S A SURVIVOR. HE DOESNT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK"

turns out he was slightly retarded. lol.

i missed wms's iu toooo. sheikh said it was "PURE SHIT FIESTA" AHAHAHAHAHAA. so its okay =D OKAY SO THIS SATURDAYS IU DAYS ARE VERY SHITTY LA PUDU GIRLS SCHOOL AND METHODIST GIRLS SCHOOL LOL YUCKKK CAN YOU SAY vagina overload?! OMG DID I JZ SAY THAT!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!?!!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

this is just a short update to let you guys know im alive. (: <-- why is everyone making their smileys look like this btw!!!

i have this 1000 word essay thingy lah aiyo tuhan kami so so ham pls eat si ham and die wtf. i thought the teacher forgotten but noOoOoOOOoooooOOoOOOoOOoOOOoOoOo

and HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA. puan zahiah is the "MORAL WITCH"

true as hell. :) i was really in the toilet how dare she accuse me of merayau-ing!!!!! can't blame me for giving her the look full of hatred. one day i will make her pee her pants. pls dont faham english moral witch. PLEASE.

btw it's so scary to.... forget something completely. kinda uplifting, i guess. but still. scary in a way. seems like anything is possible. honestly, no regrets. what seemed like everything now means so little.. less than the ant crawling on the table beside me, even. BUT OMG i cant help but laugh at the sight of her OMG I AM SO MEAN.... but at least im not a flower wannabe!!!! HAHAHA. okay boo hon wai angela lim shut up!!!!!

okayyyyyyy shhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okay the cbox is really touching me from deep within i will wipe my tear now thanks guys for caring ill reply as soon as possible i promise okay!!!! AND SABRINA'S NOSE LOOKS HOTTER NOW!!!!! HAHAAHA. WHEN WANA KELUAR YAM CHA.

HI EVERYONE IN CBOX *WAVES* PLS TAKE CARE AND ENDURE THE SHIT LIFE HAS TO OFFER BCUZ THERE IS A RAINBOW AFTER EVERY PILE OF SHIT LOL :) I LOVE YOU PPL!!!!!!!!!

OI DAVID ARCHULETA COMING WOI!!!!!!!! WHOS UP FOR IT WHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg i will so kiss him up down left right

today i will not sleep for i have alot ALOT ALOT of stuff to complete.

but its okay. i have no one to blame but me.

BUT ILL BE OKAY. i am crystal gan after all.

thanks DADDY JONATHAN KONG FOR THE HELP YESTERDAY!!! :D!!!!

dont you think puan rosna will LOVEEEEEEEEEEE me?

hahahaah fringe and tudung. perfect sexy combination FUYOH. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

jz imagine if i manage to get all the malays in school to do tat LMFAOZ

what can i say?

peace, rosna woman!!!!

*runs*

aku sudah bertaubat!!!!!!

lol i know you guys are like "WHAT THE FUCK?"

trust me. you are not alone.

:) take care everyone

now pray for me. for it is 9.00pm already im all sweaty and dumb OH...MY...GOD. AND WTF MY HEAD IS STILL BOBBING TO THIS STUPID TRANCE THINGY. dj tiesto-ing!!!!!

BYE O_O

feel me bleed.
feel my aching need.
i don't want to. but there's no turning back.
here we go again.

Dreaming Out Loud ♫

9th february 2011.

new year 2010

crystal gan

booo

random.....

SWIMMING MAKES ME HAPPY!!!!

BOOOO!!!!!!

:D

Personality type : ENFP

syiok sendiri lol

T_____T

short post

the grass is always greener on the other side?

wasiat

sometimes i amaze myself

i want food

the reason for my absence

breaking news

trial fever

brrr

REBEL

booom booom powww

i dont want to be crystal gan

funtabulous :D

=/

heh =p

rawrrrr

it's 4.45am

LOOOOL HAHAHAAAH

hmm

sigh!

still in last night's pjs its 10.23pm HAHA

BAH

SPONTANEOUSNESS

SEJARAH SUCKZ T_T

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

=D?

random

HAWO T_T

KL PAC

define awesome

like an open book

i'm in this mood where

i have been

murukuness!

i have been

^_^

life's brief candle

<3

*DIES*

WHEEEE NESSS!!!

ARCHIELETA!!!!!

the world is a stage, but the play is badly cast

KO JI MA!

HAPPIEST KID ALIVE

DIES